In meditation, focus your consciousness on the Sahasrara and concentrate your aura.

As a preliminary step, you might need to focus on the Ajna or gather the aura in the Sahasrara. However, if the aura naturally gathers in the Sahasrara from the beginning, you can proceed that way.

As the aura gathers in the Sahasrara, karmic seeds that have been dormant throughout the body begin to move towards the Sahasrara, one by one, waiting to sprout. These seeds sublimate in the Sahasrara and connect to something, which can be called "the whole," and through this connection, the karmic seeds sublimate and dissolve into the whole.

When the original karmic seed connects to the whole through the Sahasrara and dissolves, the "emotions" that were dormant in the seed, waiting to sprout, are released and become temporary, light "emotions," allowing you to perceive what "the whole" is experiencing.

At that moment, there is an aspect where "you," as an individual centered on your physical body, are perceiving the emotions. However, when dissolving into "the whole" through the Sahasrara, it is recognized that "the whole" perceives the "emotions" that are dormant in the seed as the consciousness of the whole, as the seed dissolves.

When the Sahasrara is connected to "the whole," the connection is to "the whole," but the origin of the connection is "you" as an individual. At that time, there is an aspect where you, as an individual, are aware, but there is also a considerable amount of awareness as "the whole." Although you don't know specifically what is happening outside of yourself, you can feel the unity of "sorrow" and "joy" as "the whole."

This is recognized as a state where various emotions are evenly distributed.

Therefore, it is like perceiving the consciousness of "the whole" as follows:
- Joy is like "it exists, but it doesn't"
- Sorrow is like "it exists, but it doesn't"
- Compassion is like "it exists, but it doesn't"

Based on this, when the karmic seeds dormant within you dissolve into "the whole," and "the whole" recognizes those seeds, you perceive them with a similar feeling, such as "joy, or other emotions, are like 'it exists, but it doesn't.'" You feel the karmic seeds dissolving into "the whole."

When meditating with the feeling that all emotions are like "it exists, but it doesn't," you don't necessarily feel joy or sadness explicitly, but you perceive joy as if it exists but doesn't, sadness as if it exists but doesn't, and compassion as if it exists but doesn't.

This is probably because "the whole" is causing that perception. When you reach such a state, your acceptance of various events widens considerably. I think I was originally a person with a broad acceptance, but it seems to have expanded even further recently.

Regarding the concept of "it exists, but it doesn't," there is a similar story in Buddhist Zen meditation, specifically in the "neither perception nor non-perception" state. While it might be a similar story, I have recognized a similar state in meditation before, but recently, this feeling has been continuing not only during meditation but also in daily life. Previously, I only perceived this state temporarily during seated meditation with my eyes closed, but now, I experience a similar state during my waking life.

I don't think this is the ultimate enlightenment, and I still feel that there is something more.