Until now, I would meditate, and the silence would deepen, but then I would return to my daily life, and the silence would fade. However, recently, the return to daily life has become (even more) slow, and I feel like I can now live my daily life while maintaining a state of deep silence.

Of course, there are times when this is not the case, and it varies from day to day, but I feel like this trend has been increasing relatively.

However, if I meditate properly, the silence becomes stable, and progress can be seen in subtle areas, so it's not like meditation is no longer necessary. Basically, I feel like I have achieved a state of silence.

When I look in the mirror, my appearance is relatively normal, and I don't have an extremely cheerful or joyful expression... This might be misleading, but if you were to say I have a smile, it's not that I don't have a smile, and if you were to say I have joy, it's not that I don't have joy, but I feel like I have a strange expression.

A while ago, I felt like my emotions and spiritual growth were quite connected. However, recently, I've been experiencing inner changes that don't necessarily align with my emotions.

Compared to before, when my emotions were often heightened, now, when I achieve a state of silence, those emotions subside.

It seems like I've been repeating a similar cycle for decades, and although the degree is different, it's similar to the cycle of being enveloped in intense joy in the "zone of bliss," and then that joy stabilizing and my emotions calming down. I feel like I'm going through a similar cycle again now.

It's like my entire body "fell" or "dropped." It's not like my body has disappeared, but the sensation is that my body has become lighter. If I don't pay attention, I feel like I've forgotten the weight of my body.

This is a very subtle expression, and I think that most people don't consciously think about the weight of their body. After all, the body is usually in motion, so unless someone is obese, they probably don't feel the weight of their body very much. This is even more true during meditation, where it's normal not to think about the body.

So, what does it mean that my body "fell" during meditation? As a metaphor, I think that when I experience this, I perceive the impurities in my aura, which are associated with my body, as "the weight of my body." In reality, it's not the weight of my physical body, but when the aura is stagnant, I feel like my body has become heavy. Although the actual weight on the scale doesn't change, when the aura is purified and my consciousness becomes clearer, I feel like my body has become lighter. In reality, this is not about the physical body, but about the sensation of the aura. That's what people in the spiritual and meditation world have been saying for a long time, "the body has disappeared." That's what I think.

In terms of linguistic expression, I have experienced similar situations before, but each time, the depth of silence has been gradually increasing.