I think everyone has memories of the past that sometimes resurface unexpectedly. Whether that resurfaced memory is recognized as a trauma depends on whether there is a rejection reaction to it, or simply remains a memory. Both are rooted in the same basis of memory, but the rejection reaction is what makes it a trauma.

Recently, while meditating, I've been feeling past memories, including their aura. This has happened before, but previously, when past memories resurfaced with their aura, it triggered a rejection reaction, leading to trauma. However, recently, these memories resurface without a rejection reaction, and simply as memories and their aura. This aura isn't always pleasant; sometimes, the painful aura from that time is reproduced. But without a rejection reaction, the aura simply arises, and then, unexpectedly, the aura disappears as if its energy has been depleted.

Just before the aura disappears, it seems to be quite clearly present around me. But the next moment, the aura unexpectedly vanishes. It's as if the aura, which was associated with the memory, has been "fully experienced" – in a metaphorical sense, it has been experienced to its fullest extent. After simply feeling the aura, it suddenly loses its energy, or perhaps it decomposes and merges with my higher self, returning to its source. It feels as if the aura, having fulfilled its role, suddenly disappears.

The decomposition of the aura, the feeling of having fully experienced it, all happen simultaneously, and it seems as if the aura, along with the memory, has completed its role and returned to its source.

This kind of thing has been talked about in spiritual circles for a long time, but in reality, it seems difficult to put into practice immediately. It seems that a certain foundation is necessary before one can reach such a state.

■ The aura that accompanied the memory decomposes and becomes only the love of the higher self.

This can be rephrased as "acceptance" or "healing." Perhaps it could also be called "letting go," but it may seem like you are letting go, although in reality, you are not letting go of anything. Therefore, the term "letting go" is not entirely appropriate. It's simply the process by which the aura is fully experienced, decomposed, and consumed.

"Iyasarete," which means "healed," might also have a misleading nuance. If you say you are not healed at all, then it is true, and as a result, it may seem like you are being healed. However, this kind of aura experience is based on the consciousness of the higher self (or the love of Anahata). It is based on the premise that feelings of love and gratitude are arising, and then, the rejection disappears, and this kind of "thorough enjoyment" occurs. If memories and auras suddenly emerge from deep within, and the memories and auras of that time are reproduced without rejection, then what happens at that time is that only the aura of that time can be felt.

It is based on the love and gratitude of the higher self, and the reproduced aura that emerges quickly decomposes and unexpectedly returns to a state of pure and silent consciousness.

It can also be said metaphorically that memories are purified just by thoroughly enjoying the aura. In this way, every time you meditate, past memories and auras resurface, the aura of that time is reproduced, and while you are thoroughly enjoying and feeling that aura, the experience of that aura unexpectedly ends and returns to a state of only the love of the higher self.

It seems to be based on several foundations.

- A state of stillness
- The love of the higher self

In Mahayana Buddhism, this might be called "the unification of emptiness and compassion."

In the teachings and practices of Mahayana Buddhism, the unification of emptiness and great compassion is considered the most important principle. It is the very essence of Mahayana teachings. "Rainbow and Crystal (by Namkai Norbu)."

It might also be said to be the unification of stillness and gratitude.

■The experience or knowledge that "I am safe" stops the rejection.

Furthermore, it seems that overcoming trauma requires a certain kind of "training" or "familiarity." This kind of "thorough enjoyment" of the aura seems to depend on the experience.

- The experience that it is okay to not reject memories or auras, and that you are safe.

Trauma is used for a certain kind of danger detection, and in reality, premonitions or future events are particularly important in nature, and without them, the survival rate decreases significantly.

However, this depends on the time and circumstances, and it is not always necessary to rely on something like trauma to ensure safety.

As life experiences accumulate, you move one step further from reactive responses and build up a foundation or experience of "I am safe."

Depending on the school of thought, this principle of "safety" is built up through logical reasoning. For example, in the Indian Vedic tradition, it is said that "the self (Atman or higher self) is eternal, full, and cannot be diminished," and this understanding leads to a state of absolute safety. However, if this is overemphasized or misunderstood, it can lead to a selfish way of life, where one believes that they are the most important, that they are always right, as seen in some aspects of Indian culture. However, with a correct understanding, this "safety" can be properly established. The absolute safety lies not in the ego, but in the Atman. However, those who do not understand this well may mistakenly believe that the ego is absolutely safe, and they use this to justify their way of life and believe that they are always right. In reality, only the Atman is inviolable.

As the awareness of oneself as the Atman (or higher self) increases, the ego may unexpectedly show less resistance.

This is just for explanation purposes. In reality, it may simply be a state of "being fully experienced," and at that time, one may not even think about the Atman. When we break it down and explain it, there is a basic foundation like the one mentioned above, and because of that, one does not need to react defensively because they are safe.

Some schools of thought may call this "knowledge (through understanding)," but personally, I think it is more about experiencing the state of being safe.

Of course, it also depends on the environment, and even if one believes they are safe through knowledge, there may be dangerous living environments or relationships. On the other hand, if one lives in a safe environment for a long time, they will eventually come to understand, through experience, that they are safe. In other words, the experience of being safe is accumulated and becomes the foundation.

Therefore, staying in a safe environment for a while seems to be important for stopping the defensive reaction, or in other words, for overcoming trauma. This can sometimes take decades, and it may take that long to achieve complete overcoming.

▪️"Let's heal" in spirituality is a rather advanced topic.

In spirituality, we often hear things like "let's heal the trauma" or "let's feel and accept the trauma."

However, spirituality often doesn't talk about the underlying assumptions, and instead, it simply says things like "it's easy," "just feel it," "it's something that anyone can do," or "it's just a matter of remembering." This creates a significant misunderstanding, in my opinion.

This is a story that says, "If you reach that level, it can be done easily," but it's not something that everyone can do.

Indeed, if someone is already awakened to a certain extent from birth and only needs a little more awakening, then it might seem like an "easy" thing, or that it's just a matter of "remembering." Therefore, for that person, it is true, and there is usually no lie in what they are saying. However, for many people, it is not easy, and it is not just a matter of remembering. In fact, many people don't even have anything to remember in the first place.

It's easy to imagine that someone might initially be drawn to spirituality, and then later become disgusted with it, feeling like, "What was I doing?" So, it's better to avoid giving the impression that these kinds of stories are "easy" or that you just need to "do this" or "that."

The idea of "healing" or "just feeling" is based on the foundations mentioned above, and it only works when those foundations are in place. If someone doesn't have those foundations from the beginning, they need to go through training or meditation to reach that stage.

What spirituality calls "easy" is actually the profound state that Mahayana Buddhism describes as the "unity of emptiness and compassion." Because it's a profound state, it's not easy, but if you rephrase it, it means that you reach the state of "easy" in spirituality only after awakening to the foundation of the realm of stillness and the love of the higher self. Therefore, it's only natural that not everyone can achieve it immediately, and it means that "it becomes easy" when you reach that level.

So, healing trauma or feeling and accepting trauma is a story that says, "It can be done easily if you reach that level."

As a supplement, there are times when, through the guidance of an instructor in a seminar, the space temporarily becomes one, leading people to that state. This happens from time to time, and it depends on the instructor's skill. The space changes because that person is there, allowing those in the same space to temporarily feel oneness. Otherwise, if you don't properly acquire the foundations step by step, you won't be able to reach that state on your own.

▪️Trauma is purified in a dimension where it does not become a thought.

There is a spiritual hierarchy where trauma is "felt," and after a while, the energy suddenly runs out, and the trauma disappears. At that time, you can see that the energy disappears along with a faint "image" that is like a remnant of a memory.

It also seems like the energy is converted and sublimated from the bottom up, passing through the area near the back of the head.

However, when it descends to a lower level and becomes a thought, and is felt as words or concrete feelings, you become trapped by it, or resist it, or get caught in a loop of thoughts.

This is also about raising your vibration, but even if your vibration rises, you can sublimate the energy of the trauma.

When trauma appears as a concrete feeling, it becomes a loop of thoughts, and if that loop of thoughts continues without being resolved, it will eventually manifest as a concrete "reality." The same phenomenon is realized in reality. However, this realization takes place over a period of years.

Therefore, if trauma appears and you are trapped by it, it is a somewhat dangerous situation. In reality, it may be better to forcibly suppress the trauma.

In spirituality, it is often said, "Do not resist trauma," and "Accept the trauma." However, this is a concept for the higher levels. If the trauma appears as a thought and you are trapped by that thought, it is better to resist the trauma and not accept it at the level of thought.

If you accept the trauma at the level of thought, that trauma will manifest in reality. It will gradually manifest in reality over a period of 5 years or so. However, if you have overcome those feelings by that time, it will not be a major problem and will be cleared smoothly, and that is also a confirmation that it can be cleared, so it is not a big problem. However, sometimes this manifestation causes problems, so it is better not to manifest it in the first place if it is not necessary.

When trauma appears as a thought, it is often said in spirituality that "resisting that thought gives it energy and makes it bigger," or "you are sending energy to the trauma." This is true to some extent, but compared to the situation where it manifests in reality, I think it is better to resist it and prevent it from manifesting.

When trauma already manifests as a thought and is looping back, it means that the trauma has, to some extent, become real as a thought. Since it has become real, some kind of action is necessary.

On the other hand, stories like "accept it" are on a higher level. At that level, it has not yet become real, so you "feel" it, and the energy is exhausted, and the trauma disappears. Of course, in this case, it does not become real, so it is safe.