The conversation shifts slightly, and then there's the topic of relearning. Since the COVID-19 pandemic, I've been working remotely, which has given me more time, so I started relearning at the Open University. There's also a background to this, such as the fact that I felt a difference in intelligence between myself and others in the past. I think I might be able to graduate from the Open University this year, but when I was studying at the Open University, I completely forgot the things I learned in high school, so I'm thinking of going back and reviewing everything from high school. Because of this, I bought a simple reference book as a trial, and I was surprised at how much I've forgotten about general knowledge, such as history, idioms, and the meanings of kanji, even though I didn't use social studies for my exams when I was a high school student. I use English in my daily work (reading, writing, listening, and speaking), and I don't have any problems, but sometimes my prepositions and grammar are a bit strange. It's usually fine if the content is understood for technical work, but I think I don't get very high scores on tests because there are many small mistakes. So, I think it would be good to relearn everything. It seems that it's better to solidify the basics now. I think I can review the content of the Center Test (now called the Common Test) in about three years. I used to be bad at classical Japanese in high school, but when I looked at it again after a while, it was surprisingly fresh and interesting. I've completely forgotten about classical Chinese, but it seems interesting, so I might take it as a course in the final term of the Open University. When I took modern Japanese tests back then, I thought, "Why am I being made to read such strange articles?" But now I think it's interesting to be exposed to the essence of various people's thoughts. In any case, right now, I'm getting a strong "study" message (from an unseen guide), and no matter what I do in the future, I need to study a lot to achieve it, so it seems that it's a good time to relearn the basics. I also think that if I want to talk to smart people like that, I need to study more, otherwise, I might not even be able to understand them. I've recently gotten used to studying again at the Open University, so it might be a good time to start relearning seriously. From my current perspective, I'm basically studying for cultural enrichment, but there's also a side of me that's learning slowly because I'm being told to "study" by the guide (or at least, that's how it feels). I don't know if it's true or not.

The mental state conducive to studying is one with few distractions, emotional stability, and a quiet demeanor. It is because of this stability that one can concentrate on matters. When praised for studying and told "you're amazing," it can inflate one's ego and self-esteem, hindering the study process. Therefore, an environment with people who are at least somewhat superior is preferable. In such an environment, one can study quietly and undisturbed, without being praised or criticized, without being held back, and can accept what others do without getting involved, enjoying freedom while avoiding environments that trigger negative self-esteem or inflate the ego, and environments that increase distractions. In such an environment, one can study and achieve good grades. This is why students in urban, prestigious schools tend to have better grades. In addition to their inherent abilities, the environment boosts their growth. Alternatively, if one is significantly ahead of others, they may be overlooked. However, if one's grades are only slightly better, they may be compared and experience negative self-esteem or feel held back. In my rural area, like my father's family, there are many people who laugh at or hinder others' failures. During high school, this environment damaged my mental state, making it difficult to study. I wonder how I managed to get into university under such adverse conditions.

I have received detailed instructions from higher-level guides regarding learning, including re-learning things I had learned in the past and acquiring general knowledge to the extent of being able to pass the general entrance exams for top universities. If possible, they suggest I should enroll directly. There are several reasons for this. First, I did not have an environment conducive to focusing on studying during my active years. Second, in the age of AI, the programming I have been doing may become obsolete. Furthermore, this seems to be the most important aspect for the higher-level entities. They say that after my death, half of my soul will return to a group soul in heaven, while the other half will merge into a person 400 years in the past, which is similar to a "walk-in." In the commonly understood sense, a walk-in is when the existing soul leaves and a new soul enters. However, in this case, the existing soul remains, and in addition to the soul of that person (a fragment of the same group soul that separated from me), half of my soul (after death) will enter and merge, inheriting my knowledge and insights, and create a new timeline. To make that life meaningful, they say that modern academic knowledge is essential for that future world, so I should study diligently in the current era. This is not just for personal gain but to have an impact on many people, and I should study diligently now. (I actually know the specific person's name, but it's too famous to mention.) The guides (higher-level entities) say that the knowledge I acquire in that new parallel timeline will be useful at that time, so I should gradually prepare for it. However, I feel like, "Is that really true?" Even if it's not true, studying itself is useful, as general knowledge is interesting and educational. If, in the future, things turn out as instructed, studying while working will take time, so it's necessary to start now. In any case, general knowledge is beneficial, so it's not a waste of time.

Now, I am relearning high school subjects, and I realize that subjects like social studies and Japanese language arts were not heavily used on the entrance exams, and I didn't memorize much of them. I often skipped over them during high school. However, I focused on science subjects in university, so I am now gaining a deeper understanding of modern Japanese literature and classical Japanese literature, and I am making interesting discoveries.

During my first attempt at university entrance exams, I had mental health issues that made it difficult to concentrate, and I often had headaches. This made it difficult for me to study effectively, and my mental state deteriorated. However, now I have an environment where I can calmly learn, which is a good thing.

When I took the university entrance exams, I was aiming for a prestigious university with a calculated strategy, but my mental state was unstable, and I received looks and irritation from the school teachers. They told me, "⚪︎⚪︎ is good enough," but they said, "You won't get into ⚪︎⚪︎ University," but I actually passed, and even after that, they said, "You probably just barely made it." I said some rude things, but it seems I hurt the teachers' pride.

Until elementary school, I had a good memory, but in junior high and high school, I struggled with mental health issues, which made it difficult for me to retain information. I was constantly laughed at by my father, which caused stress and made it difficult for me to concentrate. However, my programming skills have been useful for many years.

In high school, I created shooting games in assembly language, which helped me develop logical thinking skills. I didn't spend much time on school subjects, and my grades were average, but the programming skills I developed on my own were useful in my later career.

In university, I majored in information science, but the courses were basic. However, I feel that my experience from high school has been helpful in my work after graduation. The assignments at university were not very difficult, but in reality, I needed to create complex programs with over 100,000 lines of code, and that experience was very valuable.

My programming skills were not understood by my teachers or classmates. I considered attending a prestigious high school, but the commute time and the burden of homework made it less appealing.

Because I didn't study Japanese language arts much during university entrance exams, I lacked knowledge of common kanji and idiomatic expressions. However, I was seen as someone who could do well, considering I came from a rural area, so I had a certain amount of pride. I struggled to overcome that pride.

The education system can be harmful, as it encourages comparison with other students, which can lead to inflated self-esteem and arrogance. This has affected my social life, and I have often been disliked for my arrogant attitude. Recently, my mental health issues have been resolved, and I am now able to relearn.

Looking back, some of the things I said when I first moved to Tokyo were foolish. I didn't understand anything. The underlying problem was my mental health issues and the constant distractions. Until high school, I was constantly laughed at by those around me, which eroded my self-esteem, and that stress continued to build up.

I started programming in junior high school, and during high school, I wanted to focus on computers, so I chose to attend a local high school where I wouldn't have to study as much. That was my thought process when I was in junior high school. However, during elementary school, I experienced a mental breakdown, which led to an out-of-body experience. In that state, I was able to transcend time and space, see various possibilities, and alter my life's timeline. Based on what I saw about the future, I decided that it would be better to focus on programming at my local high school rather than commuting for an hour and a half to a supposedly prestigious school. This choice was made by my higher self, or perhaps a higher spirit. While it may be difficult to understand, this was a decision made from a higher dimension, transcending time and space. In that sense, it was the correct choice. The pace of learning was slow, so I could easily get away with not doing homework or studying, and I could focus on programming. However, I sometimes felt stressed because the teachers treated me as if I were a "stupid" student, and the school environment was more chaotic than I had expected. Nevertheless, I accepted this as a directive from a higher power, which I was aware of at the time. There were many "rough" boys, but most of the girls were gentle and healing, and I thought they were good people. The local high school had a "special class," but it was just a name. The first six months were spent reviewing middle school material, which was boring, but it allowed me to focus on programming as planned. I believe that the teachers were frustrated and looked down on us because we weren't studying for university, and they couldn't understand my attitude. However, it was mostly as expected and perfect. I didn't explain this to the teachers because I knew they wouldn't understand. I knew that the university I would attend was predetermined by a higher power, so I didn't worry much about studying. About three years ago, I started taking courses at the Open University of Japan, and I am about to graduate. However, I have now received a different directive from a higher power, instructing me to re-learn the same material as I did for the entrance exams. I have begun preparing for this new learning. Given that decades have passed since then, and we are entering an era where AI like ChatGPT is used for programming, I feel that the era of traditional programming is coming to an end. Perhaps it is time for me to change my position. The impact of AI on administrative jobs, especially IT engineers, will be significant, so I need to re-learn to avoid being left behind. It seems that the era is shifting from simply studying IT to one that requires fundamental academic skills, which is why I believe I have received this directive to re-learn. When I started programming, it was in the early days, so starting early was beneficial for my career, and I often received praise from others for achieving results that were twice as much as theirs. However, I believe that a different perspective is needed now. Although I have worked in the IT field and achieved results that were twice as much as others, and even had the opportunity to work abroad on IT projects, I believe that if I had not been involved in the IT field, I might have been treated as useless and possibly even institutionalized for mental health issues. In that sense, although there were instances of bullying in the past, the response was often careless, so it was a better time. Working in the IT field allowed me to achieve results and earn a much better salary than my peers, and my experience in programming from middle and high school has been beneficial throughout my life. In the past, there were many people with mental health issues in the IT industry, so I didn't stand out as much. As long as I had the technical skills needed for the job, my mental health issues were often overlooked. I know someone who worked while being treated for a mental health condition, but when they reported a relapse to their company, they were asked to resign. While companies are now more socially responsible and less likely to dismiss employees for mental health reasons, this was more common in the past. People with mental health issues were sometimes removed from projects because their behavior could jeopardize client relationships. Seeing this, I was afraid of being diagnosed with a mental illness and ending up in a psychiatric hospital, so I avoided seeking treatment.

It's not necessarily something to rush, but continuing for too long is also pointless, so I'm planning for a period of 3.5 years. In reality, there were several timelines I considered, and some of them might have led to better universities (although I'm not sure if that's true). However, I felt that those options would inflate my ego and hinder my spiritual growth. So, I chose a path where I would be average in my studies and university, and face difficulties in society. This background, whether true or not, led me to believe that re-learning would be the best option. However, when I look at the reality, it's simply a matter of not being able to study well, so I should study. Some people get into prestigious universities and still create games through programming. I dedicated my time to programming, so my university was just average. Truly excellent people can balance studying and game development, which means I wasn't that excellent. Even though I had problems with my environment, there's always someone better. Also, there are people who overcame a bad environment and abuse, and still studied. So, I think I wasn't that adaptable or talented. I've written a lot, but the gist is that I couldn't focus on my studies when I was a student, so I have the motivation to study. Also, there's a practical and timely need for re-learning. Furthermore, from a higher, long-term perspective, half of my soul will become the basis for the next timeline, so it's important to learn well in this life. Although that's a future story, I first need to deal with the realities of my current life. So, I should enter the university, make connections, and then... The overall picture is shown, but for now, I feel like "Is this really true?" However, for that reason, it's important to study the basics now.

Intelligence and love are deeply related. If you're not intelligent, you can't understand love, and it becomes an instinctive love. People who say, "My partner is boring," are ultimately talking about whether or not they are intelligent. This isn't about whether or not you can do well in school, but about whether you have the intelligence to understand love. Being able to communicate and understand each other requires a certain level of intelligence. For example, my father would yell, "Shut up!!!" whenever I said something, making it impossible to communicate. He wouldn't listen, and yet he would tell me, "Do this, do that," and when I made a mistake, he would laugh at me (at his own daughter) and make fun of me, which is morally reprehensible and shows a lack of common sense. He was not only abusive but also unintelligent, so I think it's pointless to be a partner with someone who lacks common sense. When I told my mother about this, she said that she wanted to divorce when she was young, but in the past, there were no divorces, and when she tried to divorce, her parents told her, "There's no one in our family who has divorced," so she couldn't divorce and had been enduring it all this time. She said something like, "It's been almost 50 years since we got married," which shows that marrying someone unintelligent leads to suffering later. There are truly terrible people in the world, and if you fall in love with someone like that, you'll end up suffering like my mother.

For several reasons, I am starting to re-learn general education subjects.