Until now, I would meditate, and the silence would deepen, but then I would return to my daily life, and the silence would fade. However, recently, the return to daily life has become (even more) slow, and I feel like I can now live my daily life while maintaining a state of deep silence.

Of course, there are times when this is not the case, and it varies from day to day, but I feel like this trend has been increasing relatively.

However, if I meditate properly, the silence becomes stable, and progress can be seen in subtle areas, so it's not as if meditation is no longer necessary. Basically, I feel like I have achieved a state of silence.

When I look in the mirror, my appearance is relatively normal, and I don't have an extremely cheerful or joyful expression... This might be misleading, but if I were to describe it in terms of a smile, it's like a smile, but not exactly a smile, and if I were to describe it in terms of joy, it's like joy, but not exactly joy, and I feel like I have a strange expression.

A while ago, I felt like my emotions and spiritual growth were quite connected. However, now, I am experiencing inner changes that do not necessarily align with my emotions.

Compared to before, when my emotions were often heightened, now, when I achieve a state of silence, those emotions subside.

It seems like I have been repeating a similar cycle for decades, and although the degree is different, it's similar to the cycle of being enveloped in intense joy in the "zone of bliss," and then that joy stabilizing and my emotions calming down. I feel like I am retracing a similar cycle now.

It's like my entire body "fell" or "dropped." It's not as if my body has disappeared, but the sensation is that my body has become lighter. If I don't pay attention, I feel like I've forgotten the weight of my body.

This is a very subtle expression. If we're talking about the physical body, I don't think many people are consciously aware of the weight of their body. After all, we usually move our bodies, so unless we are obese, we probably don't feel the weight that much. This is even more true during meditation, as it's common to not focus on the body during meditation.

So, what does it mean that my body "fell" here? As a metaphor, I think it's like perceiving the impurities in the aura that are attached to my body as "the weight of my body." In reality, it's not the weight of my physical body, but when the aura is stagnant, it feels like my body has become heavy. Although the actual weight on the scale doesn't change, when the aura is purified and my consciousness becomes clearer, I feel like my body has become lighter. In reality, this is not about the physical body, but about the sensation of the aura. That's what has been described as "the body has disappeared" in the spiritual and meditation world. That's what I think.

In terms of linguistic expression, I have experienced similar situations before, but each time, the depth of silence has been gradually increasing.