Around 2024/10/30

Recently, I've been experiencing a gradual sensation in both ears, and along with that, I feel like cross-shaped energy pathways have begun to form in my head. I've had pathways connecting vertically before (although they weren't complete), but this time, it's the area connecting both ears that's different. While there was a faint line there before, it's now a clearly defined sensation that feels like a cross (again, not perfect). The sensation seems to be concentrated around the center of the ears, near the openings. I feel like energy is entering and exiting from there.

Furthermore, I've been feeling energy in my hands for a while now, but recently, I've also started feeling a strong, tingling sensation in my feet, including the soles and ankles.

2024/11/2

A large portion of my forehead, about two-thirds on the left side, and not very wide in width, suddenly began to feel energy flowing through it, like water flowing across dry land and forming a river. It's as if it had been flowing before, but it wasn't a river that felt that thick. Like a river, it felt like a hard balloon suddenly inflating with air. This sensation was more like a line, starting from the left and reaching towards the center and slightly to the right, but it doesn't seem to completely connect the left and right sides.

On the same day, there was also a new energy movement in the back of my head, as if water was finally flowing across a barren land that was still dry. Energy is flowing into the back of my head, and it feels like it's gradually expanding.

Along with this, my head has been "cracking" and loosening, which happens every day as expected, and it happened quite a bit today as well. However, the points mentioned above seem particularly noteworthy.

Furthermore, I believe this is influenced by the recent activation of my Manipura chakra. I feel like cute things, such as stuffed animals, have become adorable, as if I've regressed to being a child. Like a young girl who is fascinated by dolls, especially stuffed animals.

2024/11/3

The right side of my forehead is also experiencing the same energy flow, so it feels like the energy pathways on both sides have connected and are balanced in the center of my forehead. While there hasn't been a particularly noticeable difference in consciousness, I feel that this is one of the factors contributing to the loosening of my head and the activation of energy.

I started to feel a tingling sensation, not just in my hands, but also in my upper arms.

I feel the tingling sensation of energy not only in my hands and arms, but also in my thighs. I feel that my whole body is filled with energy.

2024/11/4

When I visited a certain shrine, I felt something in my heart. If I were to compare it to something, it would be like Shinji in the original Evangelion, who couldn't move the Eva no matter how much he tried, but started moving after feeling the beat of his heart. Do you understand what I mean by that feeling of a strong, vibrating pulse and sound?

That shrine is famous for its dragon god, but because I went late, there was no one else there. I visited just as the sun was setting, right before it got completely dark, and I felt that strong pulse in my heart several times, and it felt like my heart had grown larger.

The moment the sun sets is said to be a time that connects this world and the other world, so perhaps the timing was right. I had originally planned to go a few days earlier, but I changed the order of my visits, so I ended up going in the evening. I thought it was just a coincidence, but it seems that an invisible being adjusted things.

At first, I thought it was thanks to the dragon god, but it turns out that wasn't the case. According to what I was later told by an invisible being, the dragon god was present in that place, but not at that time and in that location. Apparently, they wanted to use that pure place, and they preferred the quiet time when there were no other people. So, what happened was that a part of my soul (I'll just say it bluntly) was originally divided, and when they were putting a part of it back into me, they wanted to do it in a pure place so that it wouldn't be affected by the aura of other beings or negative things. It felt like about 1/5 of it came back, and it feels like there's still more to come. When I was born, I had a certain amount of it, but a part of my soul (which I recognized as a ball of light at the time) left me due to a mental breakdown in my early childhood, and this seems to be about restoring that. It will probably take some time to stabilize, so I may need to rest a bit. There's nothing specific I need to be careful about, but it seems that I should just rest and live a normal life without overdoing it.

Previously, when a part of the aura returned, it felt like it was stuck on the top of my head and forced its way in over several days. However, this time, it wasn't specifically from the head, but rather it suddenly came to my heart.

As a result, my cognitive abilities have increased, and my perception of my surroundings and bodily movements seems to have improved by about 10-20 percent. It feels good.

Previously, when the aura was gone, my cognitive abilities decreased, and this was a straightforward phenomenon. When the aura returned, my cognition improved, which was a clear change.

2024/11/6

With the aura, the range of perception seems to have expanded by about 10-20 cm compared to before. Previously, the first range was about 10-20 cm from the body, and the next range was about 2-3 meters. Now, the first range, which is relatively close to the body, has become about 20-40 cm, and the range of things further away has expanded to about 4-5 meters. Within this range, I feel that I can perceive things more easily as my own.

In terms of the aura settling in, it seems to take several days. Initially, the aura felt like it was leaking a little, but I have been able to stabilize and solidify it through meditation. When it was leaking, it felt like a broken light sphere or an aura orb, with light or aura gradually leaking outwards, or it felt slightly breezy and the boundary between myself and the surroundings was ambiguous. As it stabilizes, the boundary between my aura and the surrounding aura has become clearer.

2024/11/16

While I was passing near a certain shrine and heading to a small museum, I felt like a large (invisible) white fox was calling me to come closer. I went to the museum first, and when I returned at dusk, I felt the same pulsating sensation as before, which activated the aura. It seems that I don't necessarily have to go as far as the shrine; this shrine might be enough.

2024/11/17

I also felt a slight similar throbbing in my chest at a nearby shrine that I often visit. This might be something that happens when certain conditions are met, rather than just the location. There may also be a factor of increased sensitivity. It seems that the settling of the aura is happening gradually.

2024/11/18

This morning, I suddenly felt a strong desire to purify my home. The room isn't particularly dirty, but it's not exactly clean either; it's a fairly normal room. However, I suddenly felt a natural desire to purify it, and I have felt this since last weekend. It's a natural recognition that it needs to be done.

It seems that a clean environment is necessary to naturally maintain a state of consciousness where subtle cognitive functions are constantly working. If the environment is not clean, the state of consciousness tends to deteriorate, and now, because the state of consciousness has become relatively calm, a cleaner environment is needed. Previously, that level of consciousness could be maintained even without such a clean environment (although a cleaner environment is always better), but moving forward, a clean environment is necessary. Otherwise, the state of consciousness will slightly deteriorate.

For now, I will put unnecessary items up for sale on Mercari. I'm finally getting rid of the PlayStation 4 that I couldn't let go of. It feels refreshing. (I might buy a new Switch that's likely to be released next year, separately.)

2024/11/18

This morning, I felt a sensation of cartilage or muscle stretching in the area above my throat, spreading to the left and right, along with jaw movement, and at the same time, the flow of energy improved. This area is what is known as the "granthis" in yoga, a place where energy is tied up or blocked. It seems that this blockage has been slightly released, and a stage of blockage has been resolved. Generally, it is often interpreted that there is only one granthi, but I think that in the same place, granthi release can occur in stages multiple times. One of those releases occurred in this location.

As a result of this, the energy rising from below the throat is passing through that area more easily, and I feel that stronger energy is rising to the back of the head and the center of the head than it was before. This is a matter of degree, and I feel that the amount of energy passing through the area near the throat has increased.

Although it is not yet complete, I feel that it has been flowing to a certain extent.

2024/11/20

Since the appearance of the heartbeat in my chest, the aura inside my body has become transparent and empty, and while I can feel the surface of my body, it feels like the inside of my body is empty. The upper part of the head and the surrounding areas are still stiff. I have had this sensation before, but since the appearance of the heartbeat in my chest, it has become more noticeable and clear.

2024/11/21

I feel a thick, transparent pillar rising from my body, passing through my neck, and reaching the back of my throat and the back of my nose. As that spreads from the center of my head to the surrounding areas, the surrounding areas gradually loosen, and with a "crack" or "squeak," I feel a stretching sensation like cartilage is extending, and then it loosens with a "thump." This repeats.

This sensation that pierces the center of the body can also be referred to as the Sushumna in yoga, or perhaps what is occasionally mentioned in meditation classics as the "dew column." Dogen expressed it as "dew column conception," and I feel that it is indeed a sensation that can be described in that way.

2024/11/22

The sense of purity I've been feeling for the past week is something I rarely experienced before, but it is continuous. When I experience this sensation, I always think, "I've exceeded my limits." The limits that are being surpassed are things that were not present in the previous stage, or were only faintly felt occasionally, but are now being brought to a relatively continuous state, although not constantly. I have been continuously experiencing these limits, including the subtle ones, and I feel that it is not impossible to exceed them. In other words, it's a plateau. After a period of stagnation where it seems like this is the limit, that limit is broken. I feel that again this week.

2024/11/23

I allowed the sensation of the dew column to naturally emerge from the center of my head, and guided it to spread outwards from there, relaxing the area around my head. This was effective to some extent, but I felt that the flow of energy was not good in the front of my head, near my face. So, I focused my attention on the area around my right cheek, from the bottom up to the area around my eyes, and carefully guided the energy through it. This is one of the major energy pathways (nadis) in yoga, and I feel that increasing the energy flow through that meridian or its surrounding areas, especially up to the eyes and between the eyebrows, increases the energy entering the forehead. While the center of the head is being guided by the dew column, guiding the energy through the front of the face activates the area between the eyebrows and the center of the forehead. This part has not yet been fully opened, but I feel that energy is gradually being activated in this area.

2024/11/24

When I focus on opening the energy pathways (nadis in yoga) in the front of my face, unnecessary force can enter the inner center, and the very root of the process can become blocked. This happened again today. When that happens, the energy balance suddenly collapses, and my physical condition becomes unwell.

To recover, I temporarily stopped the exercise of opening the front of my face, released the unnecessary tension in the center of my head, and then strongly focused on the center of my head again to expand the pathway in the center of my head and restore it. I think it recovered to some extent after about an hour. If it were half a year or a year ago, I wouldn't have been able to recover so quickly, and it would have taken about three days of meditation to gradually recover. In that sense, I think I am growing.

In this regard, the "roju" (energy column) plays a role, and the fact that the center of the head feels closed indicates that the "roju" is in a slightly bent state. Returning energy to the center of the head means straightening the "roju."

In that sense, it seems that the "roju" can sometimes be unstable, so caution is needed.

The term "roju" sometimes appears in discussions about meditation, and it is sometimes interpreted as if it actually exists. However, it essentially refers to an energy channel, and because it is a channel, energy flows strongly through it. When energy levels become sufficiently high, it can be perceived as the "roju." When the channel is closed, the "roju" appears bent or thin, and when the channel recovers, the "roju" appears straight.