I have recently been receiving counseling from various people to get an objective opinion about my condition, but since accepting the Purusha (divine spirit), it has become difficult. Previously, I could identify issues through general discussions about vibrations and chakras, but recently, fewer people seem to understand.

For example, I often receive comments like, "I think it's probably just your imagination," or advice like, "It might be good to relax by putting salt in your bath." These are certainly generally correct, but there's a feeling that something is off. The number of people I can get opinions from is limited.

Because I often receive counseling at events, I've come to recognize the faces of the vendors and can distinguish between counselors who provide more accurate readings. Previously, there were many unknown people, but now it's about half repeat customers and half new people.

Through counseling, the following has been revealed:
1. The recently arrived Purusha is a fragment of a higher-level being, and the original being is a woman wearing a robe. She has a small face and a high status, giving her a noble impression. She may be from Japan or Asia, or possibly from outer space (although I later realized this might be a performance).
2. Her name is not yet known (I interpret this as meaning I don't need to know it yet).
3. Because she is a higher-level being, there is no need to worry.
4. The energy pathway along the spine is not open in the head area because the left and right sides are not balanced. I also learned that imbalances can hinder the flow of energy.

In the spiritual world, many people deal with the astral realm, but exceptional abilities in the astral realm are limited to that realm. Even with clairvoyance, it is basically performed in the astral realm, and it is difficult to transcend time and space. Therefore, it only functions within the scope of "now" and things related to it.

Even so, it is helpful for discovering premonitions that would not be found through medical diagnoses or regular checkups, so the perspective of these individuals is important.

The number of people who can see higher causal realms (Karana, cause), advanced spirits, or even higher Purusha (divine spirits) is becoming increasingly limited. Currently, the term "spiritual" is often used indiscriminately, leading to confusion. In the astral realm, it is difficult to transcend dimensions, and generally requires the help of a guardian spirit. In the causal realm, it becomes possible to transcend dimensions to some extent, and as a Purusha, one can see a world where dimensions transcend and space-time becomes unified within their sphere of influence.

There are few people who are truly operating in the Purusha dimension when they claim to have "spiritual vision." Therefore, at the very least, those who can perceive Karana or higher can be considered advanced spiritual counselors. Those who work with the astral realm are considered ordinary spiritual counselors. Some people, even without special abilities, fulfill certain roles with the help of their guardian spirits, and others compensate for their lack of ability through study.

Of spiritual counselors, approximately 85% work with the astral realm, 10% with the causal realm, and 5% with the Purusha realm. This is my impression at the present time, and the actual numbers may be different.

When receiving counseling, the method used is important. From the perspective of the recipient, the results are what matter, but the person you consult with may vary depending on the time and circumstances.

In principle, it is better to have an advanced counselor who can perceive Karana or higher. However, even in the astral realm, they can often adequately address physical ailments, and sometimes they have expertise in physical matters. There are also cases where the person themselves may not have abilities, but the person accompanying them has high abilities, or there are those who have studied extensively, which can sometimes be helpful.

From the perspective of a "spiritual assessor," each viewpoint can be helpful in its own way. By having someone objectively view things from their perspective, you can better understand your own state.

Recently, I was walking down a hallway after receiving counseling at a spiritual event when I suddenly felt a spiritual disturbance. This kind of thing has become increasingly rare, so I wondered what to do. It turns out that energy was trying to enter through the crown chakra (Sahasrara), but it was blocked in the back of the head, preventing it from being properly absorbed.

At that time, in the hallway, I suddenly felt dizzy and my consciousness became blurred, my vision blurred, and it felt like something like a cloud was covering my head. I thought this was a rare spiritual attack, and it continued for a while the next day. However, after meditating thoroughly the next day, I realized that while it could be considered a spiritual attack, it was more like an energy or consciousness trying to enter, but the area around the back of my head was blocked, so the energy couldn't enter properly and accumulated in the upper part of my head, creating a "cloud" that blurred my consciousness. This happened suddenly at the event venue.

At that time, the symptoms felt like a very rare spiritual attack. I had always thought that spiritual events were quite dangerous, and I sometimes wondered if strange entities were trying to enter. However, I hadn't experienced such attacks recently, so perhaps I was a little careless... I thought. But that might have been a misinterpretation. I thought, "I thought I had grown, but maybe I still have a long way to go," and I thought, "Spiritual events are more dangerous than just going out." Even so, counseling is useful, so I thought I would continue to come regularly, being careful of spiritual attacks. I thought, "I thought I had become stronger against spiritual attacks, but I'm still more vulnerable than I thought." My understanding of the situation might have been fundamentally wrong. My original understanding was wrong, and I thought I should reconsider my thinking.

When I think of spiritual attacks, I remember times when I was possessed by other strange entities, and I often had roots extending from my weak right shoulder to my heart chakra, where they would drain my aura. I wondered if that would happen again, so I tried meditating and exploring, but there was nothing there. I wondered what to do. While meditating, I felt better to some extent that day, but my consciousness was still in pain. My expression looked like I had a cold, and I felt unusually distressed. It's rare for me to feel this much pain. I thought it might just be a cold, but it felt more like an energy imbalance than a physical problem.

During meditation, I noticed something strange. It seems to be located near the top of my head, and it feels like something is attached there. It looks like "wheat" or "brown rice" in kanji, like raw nutrients. I don't feel any particular consciousness from it, but it feels like a "mass of nutrients." And it seems to be the cause of some mental discomfort.

I vaguely received a message as inspiration that "this is an aura to be accepted," but on the first day (the day it appeared), I was dimly aware of its meaning, but I hadn't fully understood it yet.
I was wondering if it was the cause of spiritual disturbance, but maybe it's just a nutrient? So, I decided to try eating that aura on the top of my head.

That day, my lower back felt a bit congested, so I focused on opening my lower back and tried to "eat" the aura-like substance from my lower back towards my throat. At that time, my lower back and throat were not very open, so it initially got stuck in my throat. But I tried to open my throat and gradually "swallowed" the aura downwards.

Then, what happened was amazing. The consciousness that had been cloudy and hazy suddenly became clear, and the discomfort almost disappeared. When I looked in the mirror, my expression was still a bit stiff because I had been in discomfort, but I was relatively calm. It felt like I was recovering from an illness. I still look like a patient, but I feel like I've overcome the worst. Then, I looked at my heart chakra and around my stomach, and I saw that the aura that had been on my head was now inside my stomach and being digested.

Could this be the food that the Purusha (divine spirit) that came into my chest the other day is eating? (Later, I had a different interpretation, but at that time, I had that hypothesis).
Actually, I don't really understand this area. Does the Purusha (divine spirit) eat? I somehow feel like it eats anything. It seems to have incredible digestive power, and it seems like it could easily turn any ordinary aura into nutrients. The aura I just ate, even though it's like brown rice, doesn't have much taste and is just a nutrient, but I feel like I'm munching on it. Does the Purusha (divine spirit) eat energy? I don't know. I feel a little nauseous from this strange energy, but I think it will be digested properly. After a while, the strange feeling in my stomach disappeared. If that's the case, the consciousness that had been hazy and seemed like a spiritual disturbance was because the Purusha was trying to eat, but the energy was blocked at the top of my head. If that's the case, it makes sense that my consciousness became hazy. This is just a hypothesis, not a conclusion. (Later, I received an explanation through inspiration, and it turns out that I was quite mistaken. I was vaguely right in some ways, but not really. It seems that the aura is being divided and merging.)

In any case, it seems necessary to consistently practice meditation and keep the back of the head and the sahasrara chakra open.

In addition to this interpretation of "ingestion," there is also a meaning of incorporating various characteristics according to attributes, like the five elements or the crystals in Final Fantasy. If the first attribute that entered was "water" or "love," then this one might be the "ground" or "earth" attribute, and various attributes may be added.

I remember that when I received spiritual counseling from someone else at an event venue in this state, what I was saying was not well understood, and I was simply told things like "It's probably just your imagination," "You might have too many distracting thoughts," "Are you spacing out?" or "Try taking a bath with salt." Of course, there aren't many people who can see through this state and provide counseling, so I thought, "Well, I guess that's the way it is..." This counseling itself also felt like it was arranged by a higher power, intentionally drawing out those responses and making the counselor "say" them. This is because, when I made eye contact with the counselor in the hallway, they immediately stood up from their chair and showed me a flyer, guiding me. In many cases, counselors probably receive a message like "This person needs counseling." In reality, there is an aspect of intentionally making this counselor say something wrong, deliberately giving them inspiration, and intentionally creating this "misunderstanding counseling." (Therefore, it can also be said that this is not the counselor's true self.) I think they probably thought, "This is what I said, but something feels strange." There is also a meaning of making me pay attention so that I don't do such inappropriate counseling in the future. The immediate goal for the future is to become able to provide appropriate counseling even in such situations. This counselor was probably used by a higher power as a warning to me and as a future lesson for me. This counseling felt strange from the beginning, and (I) was (partially) manipulated by (my) higher power, and the counselor was making (my) higher power say what they wanted.

Now that I think about it, perhaps what I thought was a spiritual affliction in the past was simply a matter of not being able to properly absorb energy or not being able to handle energy properly. If that's the case, the spiritual-like symptoms I've experienced at spiritual events make sense, and it may often be the case that it's not a spiritual affliction, but rather that the energy is becoming excessive and causing a capacity overload. I sometimes hear stories about spiritual events being dangerous, but it's possible that this is also a possibility.

Probably, because (Purusha) can absorb and convert almost anything into nutrients, there is generally no need to worry about spiritual contamination. However, if it is not absorbed properly, energy stagnation may occur, which could feel like spiritual contamination. (Based on later understanding, the part about "eating" is somewhat correct, but it is a misunderstanding. Regarding energy stagnation, that is correct.)

The total amount of energy I am handling has increased, so I think I need to take good care of my body and meditate properly.

In that sense, it was quite a new discovery.

Later, while writing these things, I received inspiration that served as an explanation:
- This (the pressure aura attaching to the head) is necessary. Please do not reject it (that is what the guide thought). If I had rejected it, something terrible would have happened. I am glad I accepted it.
- The aura was introduced during the counseling session, at a "safe" time. The dizziness and blurred consciousness that started shortly before the end of the counseling session were due to that.
- The aura that was added this time needs to be stabilized.
- Since it is a part of the aura that I had stored in the past, it has a certain degree of compatibility with the current aura.
- The temporary discomfort was expected. There was a possibility that the aura would not stabilize, but I am glad it has stabilized.
- It can also be said to be an aura of a different attribute. It is a part that I had removed and stored away in my past life because it was not needed. It was kept by the so-called guardian spirit.
- Purusha (divine spirit) is constantly absorbing the aura not only from the head but also from the space around it in a circular manner, so it does not rely solely on the Sahasrara. The fact that more aura has entered is indeed a source of nourishment for Purusha, but there is no need to interpret it as "eating." It is sufficient to simply interpret it as "aura has entered." The part about "eating" is a misunderstanding. The feeling of something passing through the throat is similar to the sensation of swallowing when eating, but that is all. It is a matter of connecting the physical sensation and making a subjective interpretation.
- The additional counselor was made to say things according to a script written by the guide. There was also a meaning to prevent my ego from becoming overly elated by the good things said by the previous counselor, by completely denying the interpretation at that time. However, it seems that there was not much to worry about in the first place, so it may have been unnecessary. There was also an intention to emphasize the importance of valuing one's own feelings rather than blindly believing the counselor's opinion, but that was not a problem. It is fine.
- It is correct that it is better to open the energy channels (sushumna in yoga) along the spine.

It feels like I've overcome a difficult situation recently, and now I'm relatively calm.

It seems like I experienced a day and a half (from yesterday afternoon to this evening) where my consciousness was suddenly enveloped in a large cloud, and while it wasn't quite a trance, my consciousness was covered, merged, and unified. I didn't undergo any specific rituals, but it felt like I had, and during that time, my consciousness felt like it was partially gone, and empty. And as my aura stabilized, my consciousness returned, and now, my face still seems to be in a state of recovering from an extreme condition.

I meditated and rested the day before, but the next day, I remembered something else. When I was a child, I experienced out-of-body experiences, and I would choose various scenes and add auras. I think that at that time, my childhood spirit was also above me, perhaps doing something to me. It was probably adding auras to me, and that's why I felt dizzy and my consciousness was hazy. When you have an out-of-body experience, you can transcend time and space, so I was probably adjusting my future self. I've largely forgotten about it now, but I suddenly remembered it.

I don't remember exactly what I was thinking at that time, but since spirits make choices with a certain level of perspective across the past, present, and future, they are making choices that are reasonably appropriate. It's an operation I'm doing to myself, so there's no way to deny it, but now, it seems to be interfering with my current self in two aspects: the child's pure way of thinking and the breadth of knowledge gained as a spirit. I faintly remember it, or rather, I had almost forgotten it until recently, but it seems like I was trying to do various things for the better, even as a child.

One of those things is what happened at the spiritual venue the other day. When I recall it, it seems like I, as a child, pondered and performed some kind of spiritual operation on me in the "safest" state. I thought that if I performed the operation during my usual meditation or daily life, it would be dangerous, so I thought that if I was receiving counseling from a teacher I had previously learned from, they would be monitoring my condition and I wouldn't end up in a strange state. From my current perspective, it seems like meditating at home would be safer, but... It's hard to understand what a child thinks, even about themselves. And I did something, but I don't remember it well now, and I don't know what I intended, but it seems like it's a preparation for future steps.

As part of this, it seems that the divine spirit (Purusha) within me has temporarily become inactive or withdrawn, and while it is present, it is not manifesting outwardly.

Thanks to this, or perhaps because of it, my condition has become strange and unstable, even more so than it was just before the divine spirit (Purusha) entered.

I wondered, "What happened?" But when I faintly recall what I thought at the time, I suspect it might be something like the following:

- I received counseling, and even though it was only a little, there was a part of me that felt good, and even that small ego was disliked by my childhood spirit. It seems that my childhood spirit is not satisfied unless the ego is almost completely zero. That's a childish aspect, but the childhood spirit itself has some ego, so it's also projecting my childhood ego onto my current self, and by the childhood spirit seeing my current self (which is the future from the perspective of my childhood), it seems like it sees that the ego is still present. Of course, I don't have zero ego; I'm alive, so it won't be zero. That's probably because, as a child, I was pure and a perfectionist. I'm being overly detailed, even for myself.
- I want to stop relying on the divine spirit (Purusha). There are many things I can do for mental stability without the Purusha, but because the Purusha is there, my tolerance is higher, and as a result, I've become less attentive to my daily life. I want to make sure I'm balancing my basic daily life without relying too much on the Purusha.
- In order to grow to the next stage and merge with the next aura, I want to temporarily nullify my current aura. This doesn't make sense to me right now, but it's like what's said in spiritual terms, "In order to move on to the next stage, you must first (metaphorically) die." My current self is unstable, and I'm far from healthy, and I've been in a pretty bad state for a while now.
- I felt like I had grown a little, but I seem to be just a vessel.

I suspect that at the event venue, when I was receiving counseling, my childhood spirit was somehow transcending time and space and was above my current self, changing its appearance to look like something, and manipulating my current self. As a result of that manipulation, my current self became quite unstable, and I was in a state of confusion for several days, but I'm recovering with each meditation. Even so, I still feel dazed if I'm not careful.

Regarding the appearance of my childhood spirit at that time, since I was "atmosphere-oriented" as a child, it was probably in an appearance that seemed appropriate. I probably saw the clothing in a manga or anime. I had already watched many manga and anime for several decades before that, so it wasn't just manga and anime from 30 years ago, but clothing from somewhere in a different era. And although it was dressed up to look like a god, it was probably just my childhood spirit "pretending." Things like "a god wearing clothes I've never seen before" are not really related to what is happening, because astral beings can freely change their appearance, and truly higher-level gods have no appearance. Having an appearance is intentionally conveying a clear image for some purpose. I myself, even as a child, was quite good at acting like this. I think it's interesting and funny, and I also think, "You're doing well."

Even so, what was I, as a child, thinking when I made my future self (30 years later) do this? I can't remember the trigger for that. Thinking back, it's more accurate to say that my childhood spirit was strict, rather than a guide, and that it was quite harsh to my current self.

If it were just a simple malfunction, there are more basic things that need to be taken care of. However, when I encounter my childhood spirit during out-of-body experiences, it's often a mix of significant spiritual growth and spiritual crisis. My current self will undergo significant changes because of this, but my mental state at that time was terrible. I was being bullied at school and subjected to emotional abuse at home, so I was in a highly stressful state. So, I was out-of-body while sleeping during those stressful days, and when my childhood spirit, based on that stressful state, contacted my current self across time, the heavy vibrations would be transmitted and weigh down on me.

For example, when I first awakened the kundalini, or the ida and pingala channels, I remember that my childhood spirit saw the state of my body at that time and thought, "Ah, the energy channels (nadis in yoga) are quite blocked... I need to remove this accumulated dirt to improve the flow of energy." As a result of removing the dirt, the ida and pingala channels awakened a few days later. Otherwise, it might have awakened only on one side and become unstable, or it might not have awakened for a long time, such as 7 years, and it would have taken much longer than it did now. It's good that they remove the dirt or do something, but since they enter my body, the aura of my childhood conflicts also merges, and I also have to take on those struggles. There are both good aspects and negative effects. However, in the end, it's my own business, so there's nothing I can do about it.

In this way, my childhood spirit has two aspects: one that accelerates my current spiritual growth, and another that transmits the conflicts of my childhood, which can temporarily cause pain. When the spirit is in this state, my understanding expands, and I can communicate with my higher self and guardian spirits, and even perform spiritual operations. In this state, the childhood spirit can transcend time and space to influence the future (which is me now), adjusting things like the kundalini, which is a good thing. However, when performing these operations, the aura comes into contact, and the aura of the childhood conflicts is transmitted, causing discomfort.

However, this is something I am quite aware of, as it is related to things I did in the past, and it is temporary, so it is not a long-term problem. Nevertheless, when it actually happens, it causes mental discomfort for several days to a week. I recently experienced this type of contact, and as usual, I was in a crisis, and it took about three days for my mental state to stabilize. Perhaps, because of this state, the purusha is hidden and not emerging. For now, I will focus on meditating with my own self to stabilize.

In reality, I had a feeling that something would change within a few days of this spiritual event, and although I knew it would be a painful state, I didn't know exactly what would happen. This is what happened. I thought that after reaching this point, things wouldn't be so painful anymore, but suddenly I'm in a painful state, which is quite difficult, but since it is temporary and will last at most a week, I can endure it without any problems.

I remember that even though it is temporarily painful, it should lead to a one-level advancement once it stabilizes. I remember it lasting only a few days, so in that regard, it matches my memory. After that, whether it will be as I remember or not remains to be seen.

The childhood spirit always appears suddenly, and although I sometimes have a feeling about it, I don't know in advance what will happen. In this case as well, I didn't understand what was happening on the day, and I was simply in a state of confusion. However, a few days after it ended, I realized, "Ah, that was what it was."

However, if I were to look at myself in the mirror from an outside perspective, I would just appear to be a person with spiritual problems or mental issues, and it would be impossible for them to understand such an interpretation.

As someone who provides counseling, I would think, "I wouldn't be able to see through this," and even if I did, I would think, "It might just be a delusion." Objectively, that's my impression. Normally, people wouldn't believe something like that, but this interpretation resonates with me the most, and I have no questions or doubts about it.

I thought that the fusion of my consciousness with the Purusha (divine spirit) would be a gradual process... but it's a rather rapid development. I myself don't know what will happen to me, and I only remember it after it's over. The scenario that my younger self created is quite entertaining.

In addition to that, I'm also being subjected to unwarranted resentment from a young girl, even from a distance, which is a rather difficult situation. Initially, this was all jumbled together, but each factor was independent.

▪️Recovered from a spirit-like tense state in about 3-4 hours of meditation.

Since the events at the spiritual event venue, I've been experiencing a tense state that feels like a spiritual affliction for about a week. However, I almost completely recovered by meditating for a solid 3-4 hours on the weekend. The first time I looked in the mirror, my face was tense and rigid, but I checked in the mirror about every hour, and I could see that the tension was gradually decreasing. It seems that the resentment from the young girl alone had an effect that could be ignored, but there were other factors at the spiritual event that caused instability, and I was affected in that state.

While relaxing, I heard "mish," "paki," "gori," and "poki" sounds, like bones cracking, in various parts of my head, and each time, the tension would ease slightly. I haven't counted exactly how many times, but it probably happened more than 50 times. It had happened sporadically before, but this time it's more frequent and intense.

The basic principle of meditation is to focus on the space between the eyebrows. However, when I focus on the space between my eyebrows, I hear a sound like a bone cracking, which eases the tension slightly. Then, because that area has loosened, other areas become slightly tense, so if I continue to focus on those areas, I hear sounds like "gori" or "poki," and they loosen again. It's not just the center axis of the body, but for example, if I focus on the area around the jaw, that area loosens, and the corners of my mouth widen, bringing me a little closer to a smile. I repeat this on both the left and right sides, or I focus on the left and right sides of the throat, which are the Ida and Pingala, the energy channels that run vertically on the left and right sides of the body (nadis in yoga). I guide the energy through the Ida and Pingala, through the cheeks, and up to the eyes. I focus on the area around my ears, and I hear a "piki" sound, and my body relaxes. Then, I focus again on the space between my eyebrows, loosening the area around the center axis of my head. The other day, I repeatedly and gradually loosened the area around the center axis of my head, and today, I loosened the same area in a more detailed and gradual way. There was also tension in the area around the crown of my head, so when I focused on it, it relaxed, and the Sahasrara, which had been closed since the weekend, opened slightly again.

The basic principle of meditation is "concentration of consciousness without force (without moving the muscles)." This is taught as a basic principle of meditation in Indian yoga, such as the teachings of Sivanananda. This principle is important for relaxation. When you are not accustomed to meditation, you tend to unconsciously use physical force when concentrating your consciousness. However, you should consciously concentrate only your consciousness and keep your body in a relaxed state.

Recently, I have been doing "zazen meditation." Even in zazen meditation, random thoughts sometimes arise, but I let them pass and return to zazen. As I continue meditating, my body gradually loosens and relaxation deepens. If you have only recently started meditating, even just one stage of relaxation is sufficient, but as you become accustomed to it, you will continue to relax for several stages. Zazen meditation speeds up this process, so if you have enough time, you can relax for several stages at once.

This time, the basic problem was simply that the energy channels (nadis in yoga) were blocked. However, something strange may have entered the area around my back. After a few hours, I noticed it and tried to grab and pull it out, but I couldn't pull it out. Instead, the energy materialized into an image, and I saw several "spider-like" disgusting legs, which made me feel uneasy. However, these were just images and did not have any particular consciousness. For this type of immobile object, once it has materialized into an image, it is easy to deal with. You can simply burn the image with an image of fire to purify it. It seems that I received some kind of energy. It may have been the aura of resentment that came from the misunderstanding I had the other day.

After burning the image of the spider, my meditation became better, and my facial expression in the mirror became softer. This type of aura of resentment, while I am basically no longer affected by it, seems to pass through if you show even a little bit of a "receptive" attitude towards the person who is resentful. Well, I am being careless. I was careless in trusting someone who made me feel uncomfortable. I am gradually realizing the cause of this problem. It seems that I received an aura of resentment because I showed a slight "receptive" attitude due to my own carelessness.

After that, I normally meditated for a few hours and gradually released the tension in each area again. During that process, there was a "pop" sound and a slight noise as the tension gradually loosened.

In previous meditations, I felt that I had recovered sufficiently, but this time, I continued meditating more thoroughly, and eventually, a deeper state of stillness arrived. Previously, due to my condition, the stillness had been shallow, and I was several levels away from it, so it was at least one level deeper.

Normally, the stillness would deepen another level, but even at this level, it seems sufficient for someone recovering from illness.

▪️Why did my past self plan such a thing?

Later, I remembered something that my self from 30 years ago thought. It was, "Even the slightest arrogance must not be tolerated." At that time, my childhood self (spirit) did something to my future self: it temporarily removed the higher aspects of the spirit and left only the part closest to the body, and kept it in that state for about 3 days.

This was a Spartan experience that I planned myself. It seems that I kept the separation state for only this short period because prolonged separation can prevent the aura from settling. When I think about "arrogance," which is a major obstacle to spiritual growth, my past self seems to have been very strict.

At last weekend's event, a counselor said, "(The higher spirit) seems to be coming out? Will it return? It seems like various things are entering." That seems to be the experience that I planned myself. Normally, I wouldn't do such a thing, so even though it was about myself, I did something unreasonable.

It is possible to separate the physical body and the higher spirit, and it can be done in an instant. The feeling of comfort and happiness comes from the higher part. The part closest to the body is a "vessel," and happiness is felt when the higher spirit dwells within it. However, the body alone makes humans a miserable existence.

Through this experience, I understood that the physical body and the thinking mind should treat the higher spirit with care.

"To treat someone with utmost care" is a phrase, but even though the core self overlaps with the higher self residing deep within, the higher self is more important, and the self that thinks and exists as a physical and mental entity is a lower-level being. Therefore, I think it is important for this lower-level self to have an attitude of "treating the higher self with utmost care" and treating it with importance.

Sometimes, I mistakenly think that the lower self has grown, so I try to correct that and do things like this. In reality, the lower self is meant to serve, and the higher self has sovereignty from the beginning. Without the higher self, the lower self is just a miserable existence that is tossed around by reality. And after returning to normal, it took a few days to finally understand what had happened.

I remember thinking that as long as even a little bit of this arrogance remains, the remaining higher aspects should not be integrated, and that it is not yet the right time. If that's the case, what I should do now is to not worry too much and just continue with "mindful meditation" to remove energetic blockages in the mind and maintain a constant connection through the Sahasrara chakra. Then, when the time comes, I will move on to the next stage.

▪️The vessel overcomes spiritual arrogance (4/3)

...I feel that way, so I'm writing it down for now.

It seems that this "miserable" feeling might be what the physical body feels when someone has an out-of-body experience, or when a higher spirit separates from the physical body. Those who have out-of-body experiences, or higher spirits, are "fulfilled" to the extent of their stage, but the remaining body is just a "vessel." It seems that elevating the ego and becoming arrogant by forgetting that the physical body and (thinking) mind are just vessels is a problem. According to the guides, even Christ is the same in that he is a "vessel," and of course, when you reach Christ's level, the body and spirit are more firmly united in a trinity, but even then, when you look only at the physical body and (thinking) mind, it is still just a vessel.

In this way, even if you think you have grown spiritually, the moment the higher aspects separate from the (physical) body, you return to a miserable mass of body and thought. This seems to instantly demonstrate that the body and (thinking) mind are ultimately just vessels. And perhaps, this will happen again in the future (through out-of-body experiences, etc.), so I think it is also a kind of training to remain stable as a vessel even when such things happen.

No matter how far you go, the "I" as a physical body and a (thinking) mind is just a "vessel," and the higher self (so-called spirit) is the true self's will and consciousness, and the spirit intends, thinks, and decides. The vessel is always just a vessel, and what the vessel can do is to purify the physical body and the (thinking) mind, and that is the spiritual training. Without a vessel, it is impossible to relate to this earthly realm, and the vessel is something to be cherished. The extent to which the higher spirit can manifest itself on earth depends on how pure and transparent the vessel can be. One of the things that hinders spiritual growth is spiritual arrogance, which is difficult to improve because it is linked to arrogance itself. Therefore, the higher spirit temporarily leaves the vessel (in the form of an out-of-body experience), so that the physical body and the (thinking) mind realize that they are nothing more than miserable, small existences, and through that, spiritual arrogance can be overcome. Even a small amount of spiritual arrogance can become a problem as power and knowledge increase. Therefore, even a small amount of arrogance should not be overlooked.

The higher self, the spirit, accumulates experiences on its own, but from the perspective of the physical self, it feels like it came suddenly. Nevertheless, the higher self, the spirit, has existed before, and the spirit itself is learning every day. The spirit stays with the vessel, the physical body, or separates from it. Along with that, the physical body and the (thinking) mind feel that the higher spirit has left, and that leads to a feeling of misery.

The feeling of being full can disappear in an instant, not because it has disappeared, but because the higher self has temporarily separated. That consciousness has gone somewhere, and the vessel, the physical body, feels miserable. And that is not something to be particularly lamented; it is just something like that. The physical body and mind of a person as a vessel are of that extent, but without it, the higher spirit cannot relate to the earthly realm, so it is something valuable. However, the physical body is temporary and will decay, so it is ultimately just that kind of thing.

Regarding this area, depending on the spiritual school of thought or the methods used, it may involve performing something that metaphorically "dies" (ritually, figuratively, in terms of consciousness) before moving to the next stage. This is not a literal physical death, but rather a metaphorical expression. There may be cases where a higher spirit temporarily detaches from someone's body and returns to a state of being only the body and the (thinking) mind, and this is metaphorically and ritually referred to as a "death ritual." By doing so, the mind may be purified, and arrogance may be (somewhat) overcome, preparing for the next stage. In reality, I have this feeling, but I am not entirely certain if it is actually true. I would like to verify it if I have the opportunity, but for now, I just think it might be the case.

...Based on what I have remembered or been told by guides, it seems that I am moving according to the scenario I planned when I had an out-of-body experience 30 years ago, and I am being manipulated by it. Even though it was something I planned, I have forgotten the details, so actually experiencing it in chronological order is surprisingly fresh.

At the present time, I have mostly overcome the traumas and emotional wounds I had, but I cannot do anything about changes caused by the very nature of reality. Even if a higher spirit is basically overlapping with the body, it can temporarily detach. The changes in sensation on the physical side at that time are unavoidable.

Even if I feel "full" with the higher spirit, if the higher self suddenly detaches, I am left with a trivial self, a self that has done foolish things in the past. Even though there were many actions that were not problematic, the problematic ones are the foolish actions, and as consciousness becomes clearer, I tend to remember past actions in detail, so settling accounts for past actions also becomes a challenge. It is not like Christian confession, but I often have flashbacks of past actions and am made to reflect on them. At that time, the higher self does not confront me, but rather my physical self and my thinking self confront my past actions, so the higher spirit is often detached temporarily.