Around 2024/10/30

Recently, I've been experiencing a tingling sensation in both ears, and along with that, I feel like energy pathways in the shape of a cross are forming in my head. I've had vertical pathways before (although they weren't complete), but the new sensation is in the area connecting both ears. While there was a faint line there before, it now feels like a distinct cross, although it's not perfect. The sensation seems to be concentrated in the center of my ears, near the openings. I feel like energy is entering and exiting from there.

Furthermore, I've been feeling energy in my hands for a while now, and recently, I've also started feeling a strong, tingling sensation in my feet, ankles, and even up to my lower legs.

2024/11/2

A portion of my forehead, about two-thirds on the left side, from top to bottom, suddenly started experiencing a flow of energy, like water flowing onto dry land and forming a river. While there was some energy flow before, it wasn't as pronounced as a river. It felt like a balloon suddenly inflating, not evenly, but in a line from the left, towards the center, and slightly to the right. It didn't seem to completely connect the left and right sides.

On the same day, I also felt a new energy movement in the back of my head, as if water was finally flowing onto a barren land. It felt like energy was gradually entering and expanding in the back of my head.

At the same time, my head has been feeling like it's loosening and releasing, which has been happening every day, and it was quite frequent on this day.

Additionally, I think it's related to the activation of my manipura chakra, but I've been feeling a strong sense of cuteness towards things like stuffed animals, as if I've regressed to a childlike state. It's like a little girl feeling drawn to dolls, especially animal plushies.

2024/11/3

The energy flow also extended to the right side of my forehead, creating a sense of balance in the center of my forehead. While there wasn't a significant difference in awareness, I feel like it's a combination of factors, including the loosening of my head and the activation of energy.

I'm also feeling the tingling sensation of energy not only in my hands but also in my upper arms.

Furthermore, I'm feeling the tingling sensation of energy in my thighs and other parts of my body. I feel like my entire body is being filled with energy.

2024/11/4

When I visited a certain shrine, I felt something in my heart. It's like in the original version of Evangelion, when Shinji couldn't move Eva, and then he felt the beat of his heart and Eva started moving... It was a similar feeling of a strong, vibrating heartbeat, or what felt like the sound of a heartbeat.

The shrine is famous for its dragon god, but it was late, and there was no one else there. I visited just before sunset, when it was almost completely dark, and I felt that strong heartbeat in my heart several times, and it felt like my heart was expanding.

The moment when the sun sets is said to be a time when this world and the other world connect, so perhaps the timing was right. I was actually planning to go a few days earlier, but I changed the order, so I ended up going in the evening. I thought it was just a coincidence... but it seems like an invisible being adjusted things.

At first, I thought it was thanks to the dragon god, but I later learned from an invisible being that the dragon god wasn't actually present at that time and place. Apparently, they wanted to use a place with a pure and clean energy, a quiet time without other people. So, what happened was that my soul (I'll put it bluntly) was originally divided, and they were bringing back a part of it into me. To prevent it from being affected by the aura of other beings or negative influences, they wanted to do it in a pure and clean place. It felt like about 1/5 of my soul came back, and there's a feeling that there's still more to come. It seems like I had a certain amount of it when I was born, but a part of my soul left during a period of mental breakdown in my childhood (at that time, I recognized it as a ball of light), and this is about restoring that. It seems like it will take some time to stabilize, so I might need to rest a bit. There's nothing specific to be careful about, but it seems like it's best to rest and live a normal life without overdoing it.

Previously, when a portion of the aura returned, it felt like it was clinging to the top of my head and forcefully entering over several days. However, this time, it felt like it suddenly came from the heart, not specifically from the head.

As a result, my cognitive abilities have increased, and my perception of the visual field and body movements has improved by about 10-20 percent. It feels good.

Previously, when the aura was absent, my cognitive abilities decreased, and it seemed like a clear change occurred when the aura returned, indicating an increase in cognition.

2024/11/6

With the aura, the range of perception seems to have expanded by about 10-20 cm compared to before. Previously, the initial range was about 10-20 cm from the body, followed by 2-3 meters. Now, the initial range is closer to the body, around 20-40 cm, and the distant range has expanded to 4-5 meters. Within this range, I feel like I can perceive things more clearly.

In terms of the aura settling, it seems to take a few days. Initially, the aura felt like it was leaking, but I've been able to stabilize it through meditation. When it's leaking, it feels like a broken light bulb or an aura orb, with light or aura gradually leaking outwards, or it feels slightly breezy and the boundary between myself and the surroundings is blurred. As it stabilizes, the boundary between my aura and the surroundings is becoming clearer.

2024/11/16

While heading to a small museum near a certain shrine, a large (invisible) white fox seemed to be calling me to come closer. I went to the museum first, and when I returned at dusk, I felt the same pulsating rhythm and aura activation. Perhaps I don't need to go far to a different shrine; this shrine might be sufficient.

2024/11/17

I also felt a slight similar throbbing in my chest at a nearby shrine that I often visit. This might be something that happens when certain conditions are met, rather than being specific to a location. It also seems to be related to increased sensitivity. I think the aura is being stabilized in stages.

2024/11/18

This morning, I suddenly felt a strong desire to purify my home. The room isn't particularly dirty, but it's not clean either; it's a fairly normal room. However, I suddenly felt a natural desire to purify it, starting around last weekend. It's a natural recognition that it's necessary.

It seems that a constantly fine-tuned state of consciousness requires a clean environment. If the environment isn't clean, my state of consciousness tends to decrease, and now, because my state of consciousness has become relatively calm, a cleaner environment is needed. While a clean environment is always preferable, it wasn't essential for my previous state of consciousness, but it's necessary to progress further. Otherwise, my state of consciousness might slightly decrease.

For now, I'll list some unnecessary items on Mercari. I'm finally getting rid of my PlayStation 4. It feels refreshing. (I might buy a new Switch that's likely to be released next year.)

2024/11/18

This morning, I felt a stretching sensation in the cartilage or muscles near the back of my throat, spreading to the left and right, along with jaw movement, and at the same time, the flow of energy improved. This area is what's called the "grantha" in yoga, a place where energy knots or blockages occur. It seems that this blockage has been slightly released and a stage of release has occurred. It's often interpreted that there is only one grantha, but there seem to be many small ones, and the release of the grantha can occur repeatedly in the same place. This time, it seems to have occurred in this location.

As a result, energy is flowing more easily from below the chest, and stronger energy is rising to the back of the head and the center of the head compared to before. This is a matter of degree, and I think the amount of energy passing through the throat area has increased.

Although it's not complete, I think it has flowed to a certain extent.

2024/11/20

Since the throbbing in my chest, my aura inside my body has become transparent and hollow, and while I can feel the surface of my body, the inside of my body feels empty. The upper part of my head and the surrounding areas are still stiff. I've always had this sensation to some extent, but since the throbbing in my chest started, it has become more noticeable and clear.

2024/11/21

I feel a thick, transparent pillar rising from my body, passing through my neck, the back of my throat, and the back of my nose. As it spreads from the center of my head to the surrounding areas, the surrounding areas loosen, and I feel a stretching sensation in the cartilage, with a "crack" or "squeak" sound, and it loosens. This process repeats itself.

This sensation that runs through the center of the body can also be referred to as the Sushumna in yoga, or perhaps what is sometimes mentioned in meditation classics as the "column of dew." Dogen used the expression "dew column conception," and I feel that it is indeed a sensation that can be described in that way.

2024/11/22

The sense of purity I have felt for the past week is something I have rarely experienced before, but it is continuous. When I experience this sensation, I always think that I have "exceeded my limits." The limits that are exceeded are things that were not present in the previous stage, or were only faintly felt occasionally, but are now being brought to a relatively continuous state, although not constantly. I have been experiencing these limits, including the subtle ones, continuously since the past, and I feel that it is not impossible to exceed them. In other words, it is a plateau. After a period of stagnation where it seems like this is the limit, that limit is broken through. This week, I feel that again.

2024/11/23

For a while, I let it flow naturally, feeling the column of dew from the center of my head, and guided it to spread outwards from there, which also helped to relax the area around my head. That was effective, but I felt that the flow of energy was not good in the front of my head, near my face, so I focused my attention on the area around my right cheek, from the bottom up to the area around my eyes. This is a major energy channel (nadi) in yoga, and by focusing on that channel or its surrounding areas, especially up to the area around my eyes and between my eyebrows, I felt that the energy entering my forehead increased. While the center of my head was flowing with the column of dew, focusing on the front of my face also activated the area between my eyebrows and the center of my forehead. This part has not yet been fully opened, but I feel that energy is gradually being activated in this area.

2024/11/24

When I concentrate on opening the energy channels (nadis) in the front of my face, unnecessary force sometimes enters the inner center, which closes the very root of the process. This happened today as well. When that happens, the energy balance suddenly collapses, and my physical condition becomes unwell.

To recover, I temporarily stopped the exercise of opening the front of my face, released the unnecessary tension in the center of my head, and then strongly focused on the center of my head again to expand the channel in the center of my head and restore it. I think it recovered to some extent after about an hour. If it had been about half a year or a year ago, I wouldn't have been able to recover so quickly, and it would have taken about three days of meditation to gradually recover. In that sense, I think I am growing.

In this regard, the column of dew is working, and when the center of the head is closed, it is as if the column of dew has been slightly bent. When energy is returned to the center of the head, it is like straightening the column of dew.

In that sense, it seems that the column of dew is still sometimes unstable, so caution is needed.

The term "column of dew" is sometimes mentioned in discussions about meditation, so it is sometimes interpreted as if it exists. However, it is essentially a matter of energy channels, and because it is a channel, energy is densely packed in it. When energy becomes sufficiently high, it can be felt as the column of dew. When the channel is closed, the column of dew becomes bent or thin, and when the channel recovers, the column of dew stands up.