It is said that when experiencing union with Purusha (divine spirit), a tremendous influx of power inevitably occurs. A tremendous power flows from the Purusha. This is described in detail in Honzan Haku's Collected Works, Volume 8.

Even though Purusha is said to be a divine spirit, it is said to be "separate" in existence. When it reaches the ultimate oneness, which is the creator god, there is no distinction and only one existence. However, at the stage of Purusha, it still has individuality.

Up to the stage of Karana (causal body), it is still an object, but when it becomes Purusha, it is no longer an object, but it still has a "shell" and individuality. In the terminology of the Samkhya school in Yoga Sutras, Purusha is interpreted as pure consciousness. However, what corresponds to Purusha is the pure material Prakriti, and Purusha is always together with Prakriti, and that is why it has individuality. Therefore, Purusha is a divine spirit, but it is not yet the ultimate, single creator god. However, it is still a higher-level existence.

In my case, about 2 years ago, a divine spirit or divine consciousness attached itself from behind the Anahata chakra in my chest, and it has been with me ever since. Recently, a powerful aura attached itself to the Sahasrara chakra on top of my head, and with tremendous power, it entered the inner chamber of the Anahata chakra through the Vishuddha chakra. It is微妙なところ (subtle) whether either of them is more appropriate to be called Purusha, but I think perhaps both of them are.

According to my experience of out-of-body experiences in childhood, where I overviewed my life, including the past and future, it seems that my awakening occurred in two stages. First, half of the aura was integrated to stabilize it, and then the remaining half was merged. Whether everyone does this is unknown, but in my case, I chose to divide it. However, I no longer remember which part was the first and which was the second, so I don't know for sure.

Therefore, as a hypothesis, I think that about 2 years ago, I first merged and integrated the aura of consciousness that creates, destroys, and maintains, and then, very recently, the remaining aura has started to enter. I don't know whether the remaining aura has all entered in my conscious mind, but I remember that I have repeatedly collected and re-integrated the part that was integrated but not fixed. So, the state of the aura's integration will probably continue for a while. During that time, it is better to avoid doing things that cause too much fatigue and to stay calm.

And, I think that if it becomes established, perhaps another level of awareness will be upgraded, but what do you think? That part will be something to observe in the future. In this industry, it's common for things to seem like one thing but actually be something else, so I'm always cautious about these things.

It's possible that my state is not Purusha, but rather one step before it, which is Karana. However, according to Professor Honzan, Purusha is the consciousness of creation, destruction, and maintenance. Therefore, it seems reasonable to conclude that what has appeared since two years ago is Purusha.

If I have truly awakened, I should see the past, present, and future as one. However, that doesn't seem to be the case yet. I think I have experienced such states temporarily even before this. But if I have truly awakened, I should continuously maintain that state. Therefore, until I continuously experience that state, I cannot say that I have awakened. It's important not to be careless until something truly becomes that way. It seems that being somewhat skeptical is just right.