Repeatedly, life restarts. At first, I didn't have any questions. Although there was a slight sense of unease, I thought it was fine. At the end of life, a result showing whether I had cleared the "life game" appeared before my eyes, but it always became dim and ended in a bad ending. It wasn't the correct, moving ending. And then, life restarts. I have repeated this dozens of times. It should have been a very happy life, but it ends up like that. I had a good social standing, my wife loved me, and there seemed to be no problems. However, no matter how much time passed, I couldn't reach the goal, and I was trapped in this space.

Eventually, I decided to change direction. Even then, I started with small adjustments. At first, I didn't know the conditions for the goal, so I tried various things. Even if I thought I had succeeded, it would end in a bad ending. Perhaps the determination of my initial goals was weak. I couldn't achieve my goals and was absorbed into a normal, happy life, making it difficult to move forward. It was a happy life thanks to my kind wife, but I couldn't achieve my goals. And then, I gradually forgot my original goals and spent my days in a happy life. Although I forgot my goals, something was missing, something that bothered my heart. My beautiful, ideal wife, who was like a goddess, was always forgetting something important, and I occasionally remembered it, but I had forgotten what my goal was.

So, I re-examined what would be the correct goal. Until now, my goal was self-realization, but even if I achieved it, it ended in a bad ending. At first, I thought that if I did something bigger, it would lead to the correct goal. However, even if I achieved considerable results, it ended in a bad ending again. Then, I realized that small adjustments and a stable environment were not enough, so I decided to reconsider my initial position. And then, I realized the correct answer was my original origin. I remembered why I was on this Earth, and I realized that there wasn't a purpose, but that I could choose the future of the Earth. It wasn't about saving the Earth in an easy way, but that saving or destroying the Earth was up to my own choice. This was something I had never thought of before. I realized that my consciousness was connected to the consciousness of the Earth and the universe, and that the choices of my higher consciousness were also choices for the Earth. If I, as my higher self, chose that the Earth should perish, then it would perish, and if I chose peace, then it would become peaceful. Now, I realized that my higher self was not making clear choices, and that was why I was being carried away. Even though I know the goal, I haven't yet reached its realization.

The numerous reincarnations at that time ended a series of events by ascending to a higher group soul. While that was a happy life, it was not one where the intended purpose could be fulfilled. Therefore, the group soul, which could be considered a collective consciousness of my former self, decided to create a split soul again. Based on past memories and experiences, it planned a different life. This split soul would first live one life. By being born into a relatively privileged family near the Edogawa ward, it would learn about the realities of this world, and then, after being reincarnated again in the same era, it would try to fulfill its original purpose. Even in the second reincarnation (for the split soul), it was a trial and error process, and initially, it didn't go well. The ego became too strong. Due to the strength of the ego, it was difficult to awaken.

Thinking that was the case, it was thoroughly conditioned spiritually before being born. Initially, it was a trial and error process. However, even after many lives with significant changes, spiritual self-realization was achieved, but it continued to end badly. When even spiritual practices failed, it became exhausted from the feeling of being stuck. Looking back, I realized that I had misunderstood that the answer was in spiritual matters.

Therefore, it decided to redo life after setting up situations that it disliked. This is my current life. In the first half of life, it was placed in a difficult environment to overcome the ego and aim for awakening in the second half of life. It was a significant experiment. Initially, it was thought that there was little chance of success, but surprisingly, there was a breakthrough there. Even in this life, it repeatedly restarted and made minor adjustments. It wasn't simply about making spiritual choices for the future of the Earth; the foundation was important. It was important to be born into an environment that would thoroughly strip away the ego that had become ingrained. In the repeated lives, there were answers for weaving the future in the seemingly insignificant, basic, rough, and chaotic events and thoughts that were previously considered worthless. It learned that the suffering of people that it had previously avoided contained the seeds of conflict in this world, and that understanding this would lead to the key to resolving it.

It was not a simple story of "good defeating evil" as described in spiritual or dualistic terms. It was not a heroic story of "saving the world" as seen in movies and dramas. No single idea, organization, or thinker held all the answers. It also learned that the more rigid an idea was, the more conflict would arise. It learned that a hierarchy of teachings, both high and low, maintains order. It learned that not only high-level ideas but also low-level ideas have their own order. The universe was created from oneness to separation so that oneness could understand itself, and by separating into two, it tried to understand itself from the outside. Therefore, it understood that it was inevitable that countless separated states would not understand each other, and that the basic principle was to gradually advance understanding. It also learned that although there are many spiritual teachings, their core principles are common. I no longer insist on a single teaching. Now, I have realized that the principle of the universe is "understanding," and that because the universe is infinite, it is practically impossible for individuals to understand everything. Therefore, diversity is a state of separation for understanding, and that it is impossible to fully understand others or things, and that complete understanding is not necessary; each individual should gradually increase their understanding within their own range. If the fundamental principle of the universe is to increase understanding, then any action that does not increase understanding is an unnecessary action for the universe, and what the universe desires is an action that increases understanding, which means that societies and environments that do not increase understanding will be rejected by the universe, and that changes in civilization, society, and the environment will occur accordingly. Therefore, I understood that if society is guided in a direction that increases understanding, the future can be created. The concepts of good and evil do not arise in this direction; the universe moves based on whether understanding increases or not. When I realized this, I was forced to redesign my future life.

And then, when I took action again, I felt that it was also meaningless and empty. Even though I thought I was doing something good, the result was empty, and at the end of the life game, a bad ending appeared again. However, unlike the previous bad ending, there was a glimmer of hope in it. Looking back, that action was driven by a sense of self-importance, and the source of that action was following the "good society" and "good behavior" norms that were influenced by public advertising and marketing, which were actions that served the interests of特定の人々. In short, I thought I was doing something good, but I was acting for the benefit of others. I realized that it was meaningless, and I felt empty. It was clear that it was a bad ending, but I didn't realize it at the time.

Then, in the next life, I tried to stop taking those meaningless actions. If this world is a game of pursuing profit, I thought that perhaps the correct answer was to stay away from it and do nothing. When I ended that life, my heart was calmer than when I took action. My heart was full. However, the world did not become peaceful. But even so, the people in the world had freedom. I thought that even if the world seemed terrible, it was a good thing that people could act freely. By not acting, I gained an understanding of the world as it is. This was a discovery. I even thought that there was no need to achieve world peace.

After that, I faced myself. And the answer I obtained was that I could only achieve a true ending when I could affirm the world as it is, fulfill my own inner peace, and achieve world peace. Before I realized this, I thought that if I affirmed the world as it is, I shouldn't act, and that trying to change the world was an act of ego. However, that was an interpretation based on the separation between the world and myself, and it was also an interpretation based on a dualistic concept. Since this world is one, I realized that hesitation, restraint, and reasons for not acting were all forms of ego resistance. Therefore, what is the correct action? It is an action of oneness. If the world and I are one, why would there be any hesitation in that action? If the principle of that action is not what is considered good by the public (which is advertising), but an impulse that comes from within my own heart, then it should be affirmed. This is because the heart is connected to oneness, and while it is ego in a state of separation, it can be connected to the will of the region, the will of the country, the will of the nation, and the will of the Earth when connected to a higher level. I realized that it is important to start with a small range and connect it to larger actions. I realized that such actions would be affirmed. So, why hesitate to act? ...This entire life, including the previous reincarnations, was for the purpose of realizing these things. Based on this new understanding, the current and past timelines are being rewritten. And when the goal is achieved, I will be released from this spacetime. The current life is in the middle of that process.

The future vision is already to a certain extent established, and in a sense, it seems that the initial goals have been achieved, as if it were a blueprint. However, it can also be said that we are redoing things by going back to the past to make corrections. However, we cannot be careless. Having a blueprint does not guarantee success. Nevertheless, we are redoing things to correct minor failures from the past, and compared to the time when we tried to achieve only the main goal while ignoring other things, we seem to be taking a slightly roundabout path. I think so myself. We are exploring the spiritual world in various ways, like climbing a mountain in a spiral, and we are satisfied with it. We are living in the present, learning that what seems different is ultimately the same thing.

We will no longer be swayed by other people's marketing or used for the benefit of cunning others. We are learning and understanding the essence of spirituality. By knowing our roots, we are gaining guidance and goals on how to act, and it is becoming clear for whose benefit we should act, and we are repeatedly making choices and taking actions to further clarify this and to assess the results.

(As of January 2025)