Repeatedly, life restarts. At first, I didn't have any questions. Although there was a slight sense of unease, I thought it was fine. At the end of life, a result appears before my eyes, showing whether I cleared the life game, but it always fades to black, a bad ending. It wasn't the proper, heartwarming ending. And then, life restarts. I've repeated this countless times. It should have been a very happy life, but it ends up like that. I had a good social standing, my wife loved me, and there seemed to be no problems. However, no matter how much time passed, I couldn't reach the goal, and I was trapped in this space.

Eventually, I decided to change direction, but even then, it started with small adjustments. At first, I didn't know the conditions for the goal, so I tried various things. Even if I thought I had succeeded, it would end in a bad ending. Perhaps the determination of my initial goals was weak. I couldn't fulfill my goals and was absorbed into a normal, happy life, making it difficult to move forward. It was a happy life thanks to my kind wife, but I couldn't fulfill my goals. And then, I gradually forgot my original goals and spent my days in a happy life. Although I forgot my goals, something was missing, something that bothered my heart. My beautiful, ideal wife, who was like a goddess, was always forgetting something important, and I occasionally remembered it, but I had forgotten what my goal was.

So, I re-examined what would be the correct goal. Until now, my goal was self-realization, but even if I achieved it, it ended in a bad ending. At first, I thought that if I did something bigger, it would lead to the correct goal. However, even if I achieved considerable results, it still ended in a bad ending. Then, I realized that small adjustments and a stable environment were not enough, so I decided to reconsider my initial position. And then, I realized the correct answer was my original origin. I remembered why I was on this Earth, and I realized that there wasn't a predetermined purpose, but that I could choose the future of the Earth. It wasn't about saving the Earth in an easy way, but that saving or destroying the Earth was up to my own choice. This was something I had never thought of before. I realized that my consciousness was connected to the consciousness of the Earth and the universe, and that the choices of my higher self were also choices for the Earth. Therefore, if my higher self chose that the Earth should perish, it would happen, and if I chose peace, it would happen. Currently, I realized that my higher self's consciousness wasn't making clear choices, and that's why I was being carried away. Even though I know the goal, I haven't yet reached its realization.

The numerous reincarnations at that time ended a series of events by ascending to a higher group soul. While that was a happy life, it was not one where the intended purpose could be fulfilled. Therefore, the group soul, which could be considered a collective consciousness of my former self, decided to create a split soul again. Based on past memories and experiences, it planned a different life. This split soul would first live one life. By being born into a relatively privileged family near the Edogawa ward, it would learn about the realities of this world, and then, after being reincarnated again in the same era, it would try to fulfill its original purpose. Even in the second reincarnation (for the split soul), it was a trial and error process, and initially, it didn't go well. The ego became too strong. Due to the strength of the ego, it was difficult to awaken.

Thinking that was the case, it was thoroughly conditioned spiritually before being born. Initially, it was a trial and error process. However, even after many lives with significant changes, spiritual self-realization was achieved, but it continued to end in bad outcomes. When even spiritual practices failed, it became exhausted from the feeling of being stuck. Looking back, the mistake was thinking that the answer was in spiritual matters. However, at that time, I was not aware of it.

Therefore, it decided to redo life after setting up situations that it disliked. This is my current life. In the first half of life, it was placed in a difficult environment to overcome the ego and aim for awakening in the second half of life. It was a significant experiment. Initially, it was thought that there was little chance of success, but surprisingly, there was a breakthrough there. Even in this life, it repeatedly restarted and made adjustments from the middle. It was not simply about making spiritual choices for the future of the Earth; the foundation was important. It was important to be born into an environment that would thoroughly strip away the ego that had become ingrained. In the repeated lives, there were answers for weaving the future in the seemingly insignificant, basic, rough, and chaotic events and thoughts that were previously considered worthless. It learned that the suffering of people, which it had previously avoided, contained the seeds of conflict in this world, and that understanding this would lead to the key to resolving it.

It was not a simple story of "good defeating evil" as described in spiritual or dualistic terms. It was not a heroic story of "saving the world" as seen in movies and dramas. No single idea, organization, or thinker held all the answers. It also learned that the more rigid an idea was, the more conflict would arise. It learned that order is maintained by the hierarchical weaving of both high and low teachings. It learned that not only high-level ideas but also low-level ideas have their own order. The universe was created from oneness to separation so that oneness could understand itself, and by dividing into two, it tried to understand itself from the outside. Therefore, it is understandable that countless separated states cannot understand each other, and the basic principle is to gradually advance understanding. It also learned that although there are many spiritual teachings, their core is common. I no longer insist on a single teaching. Now, I have realized that the principle of the universe is "understanding," and that because the universe is infinite, it is practically impossible for individuals to understand everything. Therefore, diversity is a state of separation for understanding, and since complete understanding of others and things is impossible, complete understanding is not necessary, and each individual should gradually increase their understanding within their own range. If the fundamental principle of the universe is to increase understanding, then any action that does not increase understanding is an unnecessary action for the universe, and what the universe desires is actions that increase understanding, which means that societies and environments that do not increase understanding will be rejected by the universe, and that changes in civilization, society, and the environment will occur accordingly. Therefore, I understand that if society is guided in a direction that increases understanding, the future can be woven. In this direction, there are no concepts of good and evil; the universe moves based on whether understanding increases or not. When I realized this, I was forced to redesign my future life.

When I acted again, I felt that it was also something empty. I realized that what I thought was good would end up being empty. It was a bad ending, but unlike the previous time, a glimmer of hope appeared.

Even when I thought I was doing something good, that action came from my ego. I was being swayed by the world's propaganda and marketing, and I was doing what I thought was "good for society" and "good behavior." It was being done for the benefit of certain people. I thought it was right, but I realized that it was ultimately meaningless, and I felt empty.

So, in my next life, I decided to do nothing. I thought that this world was a game of pursuing profit, and I decided to distance myself from it. However, while my heart became peaceful and I felt a sense of satisfaction, the world remained unstable. Nevertheless, I thought that it was good that people could act freely, and I gained momentum to affirm that.

The answer I gained was that by affirming the world as it is and fulfilling my own inner peace, if that is all that is needed, then that is a correct ending. Previously, I thought that if I affirmed the world, I shouldn't act, but that was an interpretation based on a dualistic concept.

I realized that this world is oneness, and that such hesitation and restraint are resistance from the ego. Therefore, I understood that the correct action is an action of oneness. Actions based on impulses from the heart should be affirmed, because the heart is connected to oneness, and that is connected to the will of the region and country at a higher level.

I also felt the affirmation of starting with small actions and moving on to larger ones. If that is the case, there is no hesitation about acting. I can say that I experienced past lives in order to gain this understanding. Based on this new understanding, the present and past are rewritten as timelines, and if the purpose is achieved, one is liberated from space and time.

The current life can be said to be in the middle of that process.

The future vision is already to a certain extent established, and in a sense, it seems that the blueprint has already achieved its initial goals. However, it can also be said that we are redoing things by going back to the past to make corrections. However, we cannot be careless. Having a blueprint does not guarantee success, and even if we redo things, there is no certainty of success. Nevertheless, we are redoing things to correct the minor failures of the past, and compared to the time when we tried to achieve only the main goal while ignoring other things, we seem to be taking a slightly roundabout path. I think so myself. We are exploring the spiritual world in various ways, like climbing a mountain in a spiral, and we are satisfied with it. We are living in the present, learning that what seems different is ultimately the same thing.

We will no longer be swayed by other people's marketing or used for the benefit of cunning others. We are learning and understanding the essence of spirituality. By knowing our roots, we are gaining guidance and goals on how to act, and it is becoming clear for whose benefit we should act, and we are repeatedly making choices and taking actions to further clarify this and to determine the results.

(As of January 2025)