When I was in elementary school, I experienced out-of-body experiences where my entire body was enveloped in light, and I encountered guardian spirits and higher selves. I explored the future and gained an overview of my life, redesigning it on multiple occasions. I learned about a certain amount of my past lives and the purpose for which I was born in this life. I gained a panoramic view of my purpose in this life, as well as the numerous failures in parallel worlds, and why I chose this particular timeline (one of the many parallel worlds). I also learned about the connections in my past lives. In addition, there were many other strange encounters and events. I also remembered quite a few things that seemed like memories from the past. Of course, there is not much certainty about it, but there were children in my childhood who could understand the connections with past lives, even if the other person did not remember. This included past lives of wives and friends. In my case, there seem to be many connections with past lives of wives. I think that there are probably many more people who have memories of past lives than people generally think. Since education teaches that there is no such thing as past lives, many people probably think it is just their imagination. However, at least, I think there were quite a few people around me who remembered past lives. I also learned that even if I feel like something will happen in the future, I am often actually seeing parallel worlds. In this way, I have been interested in spirituality since I was young, but in the countryside, there were not many books available, and there was no internet, so the information was limited. Although I had some mystical experiences, I gradually grew up, but eventually, I was crushed by various circumstances and spent days with more negative aspects.

During my childhood, I had classmates who claimed to be in contact with aliens and to be channeling. They didn't tell anyone else about it, but they seemed to be able to pick up thoughts and feelings from others like a directional speaker. I wonder how aware they were of this "thought leakage." With the support of the aliens (who were humanoid, so quite similar to humans), they seemed to be learning about the basic spiritual aspects, such as the state of other people and their future. One day, out of curiosity, I connected to the channel and communicated with the alien. The alien asked, "Who are you?" It seems that the alien had investigated all the students, and it told me something that only I would know. However, if I made fun of it, the alien got angry and cut off the connection. Also, the father of another classmate was translating a book by Billy Meier, a Swiss man who claimed to be in contact with aliens. It was a time of New Age, but I wonder if it's normal to have so many interesting people as classmates.

In past lives, I had multiple wives, and some were even classmates. Sometimes I am aware of it, and sometimes I am not. In the afterlife, we live much like we do in this world. Perhaps when we are born into this world, we tend to forget a lot about our past lives. Sometimes we remember things we talked about in the afterlife, and sometimes we don't. Also, jealousy and longing exist even in the afterlife. When I get married in this life and go to the afterlife with my wife (soul), some of my past wives might feel jealous. Most of them are good and get along well, but sometimes it can be troublesome. Most of my past wives are very good people, but even so, sometimes they feel jealous. When someone like that is born into this world and ends up in the same region as me, perhaps as a classmate or in the same grade, it becomes a strange love story that connects the afterlife and this world. Oh my. What a thing to say. Even the love in this world is troublesome enough, but if it's a connection from a past life, it's even more troublesome. Other people might be struggling without knowing about their connections to past lives, but in my case, I know everything, so I can't easily blame others or play the victim. It's my karma. The approaches from my past wives have been quite intense, but I am determined to remain single in this life because I have things to achieve. However, I am gradually losing the mental strength to do so.

About half of my past wives are happy and get along well even when I bring a new wife to the afterlife. About a quarter of them don't say anything, but seem to have some dissatisfaction. The remaining quarter actively says, "Take me with you." However, it feels like my number of reincarnations is running out (perhaps this is the last one), so I'm worried about what to do with my past wives. Most of my past wives are good, but some of them still have a lot to learn in this world.

It feels like I'm living with not only my past wives but also people who were close to me, and I tend to accept anyone who comes. Apparently, I fight with men, so there are no men around, and it's just a bunch of past wives. When I have a reading done by a channeler, they are surprised and say, "Why are there only women coming up?!"

During my university years, I became interested in UFOs and New Age movements, and I attended various organizations, but I didn't reach the essence of them. During this time, I frequently glimpsed the future vision that I had visualized myself when I was in elementary school, and I realized that the experience was real. I met a person who was my husband in a past life (he became a channeler). At first sight, I remembered various things, but I kept a distance from him because I had done something painful to him in a past life. Well, our genders have also changed.

My sexual desire was something I couldn't really control. In terms of romance, I tended to like anyone. After I started yoga, I gradually became able to control my sexual desire, and my sexual desire transformed into a more positive energy.

When I was in elementary school, I didn't really understand romance, but there were times when past wives approached me or became close to me. However, in this lifetime, I had my own plans, so if I had a romantic relationship or got married, it would disrupt my plans. So, I cut those off. In junior high school, I was struggling with conflicts with those around me, so I didn't have time for romance, and the same was true for high school. In this area, when I glimpsed parallel worlds, I saw that if I had a romantic relationship with that girl in high school, we would eventually get married, but in the end, our relationship would become strained, and everything would be my fault, leading to a divorce, and I would be blamed by everyone around me, so it would be the worst. So, I cut it off from the beginning.

In college, I didn't have a romantic relationship, but I spent a lot of time trying to manipulate a mean girl who was in the habit of belittling others. Somehow, I started to feel like I liked her, but actually, I didn't like her at all. I had an experience where I thought it was a romantic relationship, but it was a misunderstanding. It seems that there are times in life when you think it's a romantic relationship, but it's actually a misunderstanding.

After graduating from college, I didn't have time for romance. There were a few candidates, but when I glimpsed parallel worlds, I saw that the future wouldn't be very good, so I stopped. It turns out that stopping was the right thing to do, and I realized this after I started yoga.

My sexual desire was sublimated in a relatively ideal way a few years after I started yoga. Until then, I was constantly troubled by my sexual desire.

During university, my strong negative personality traits caused friction with those around me. This may have been influenced by the times. I tried to turn my negative aspects into positive ones, but the stress accumulated from my high school years was like sludge, firmly attached, so I couldn't completely purify it during university. Every day, negative emotions would come out of me without my consent. At that time, I think my inner guide was sometimes yelling at me. During university, I met someone who seemed very knowledgeable about spirituality but felt like a fake, and I realized the importance of developing my own judgment. I learned every day that I should not force things on others, manipulate them, or become in a codependent relationship. It was a difficult time for my mental state, and that was a lesson. Sometimes, I felt like I was about to be crushed by it, and I'm sure my guide was frustrated with me. Some people may have guides who are constantly teaching them, but in my case, one of the challenges was to cultivate independence, so my guide's guidance was minimal. I later understood this by meditating on the reason for my birth, so it is now resolved.

During my university days, I had a superficial "intellectual understanding" of spirituality, but I was far from enlightenment. During my university days, the Aum incident occurred, and for a while after graduating from university, there was a period where I was ridiculed, looked down upon, and disliked simply for being involved in spirituality or the spiritual world. It was a rather difficult time.

When I was a woman in a past life, I had a husband who belittled my heart, enslaved me, and prevented me from thinking, forcing me to say "yes" and mentally torturing me. I met him by chance during university, and I absolutely did not want to have anything to do with him. He was a man, and I was a woman, so we only met once, and nothing more happened. However, in an instant, I (and probably he) remembered the past. From his perspective, it seemed like he had finally found someone to exploit, but in this life, we were both men, so he couldn't exploit me. I could clearly feel that sense of disappointment. In the past life, that man "forced" and "manipulated" me. I think it was a lesson that I would never be in such a state again. Not only that man, but there are men (and women) who think I am someone to be exploited and manipulated just by looking at me. They seem to immediately recognize me as someone to be exploited, and their creepy smiles and approach are disgusting. Therefore, one of the lessons I learned during university was not to be "forced" or "manipulated" by others. It was almost 20 years later, around the age of 40, that I was able to almost completely break free from this "forcing," "manipulation," and "codependency." During that time, I often encountered people who tried to "force" and "manipulate" others, and it was very difficult to maintain my independence. Every time I felt like I was about to break down mentally, someone would come to help, or the other person would fail and disappear from my sight. I strongly felt the guidance of an unseen presence. Perhaps that unseen presence could easily completely destroy such troublesome people, but it seemed like they were watching my growth without intervening too much, keeping me at the edge. Well, I am still quite naive, but I feel like I have at least reached the level of passing that I set for myself when I was born, so I think it's okay.

In my past lives, there were several missions that I had to accomplish externally, but by prioritizing the missions and focusing on results, I created friction and accumulated karma. I am now paying back that karma in this life. Therefore, in this life, I have very few missions that I must accomplish, and if I resolve a certain amount of karma (although it is a large amount), my basic life purpose will be achieved. Among the karma I need to resolve, there is "understanding the feelings of the poor," which is something I had not experienced much in my past lives, so it has been quite difficult and a challenging experience, but I think it has been a good experience.

Well, even though it is called karma, it is karma that my group soul has accumulated, so I, as an individual, do not need to feel a heavy burden of guilt or karma. The goal for this life is not to resolve all of the karma, but to resolve a certain amount of it, and the remaining karma will be absorbed and dispersed by the group soul, and each fragment will deal with it, so it will become much less burdensome. Although various karmas from past lives are remembered as a kind of trauma, it seems that I do not need to bear all of them alone. However, this life has been quite tough, and even among the fragments of the group soul, I seem to have been one of the ones who experienced the most karma-related suffering. While other fragments are focused on fulfilling missions, I am focused on resolving karma.

When there is a mission, the mission takes priority, and money flows in abundantly. However, this time, resolving karma is the priority, so understanding the feelings and weaknesses of the poor is emphasized. In this lifetime, one of the challenges was to experience poverty, so I asked my past wives to understand that it should not be present in this lifetime. However, even though I said that marriage is impossible because it would cause trouble if they came along in this lifetime, some people, out of curiosity, reincarnated on Earth and followed me, which is a bit troublesome. My past wives are all well-raised children, and most of them have lived lives where they have never had financial difficulties. It is difficult to involve them in what I am trying to do in this lifetime. Basically, I have rarely imposed financial restrictions on most of my wives, and I have told most of them to use money as they please. Therefore, my past wives are not very familiar with a life without money. Well, recently, it has not been completely unlimited, and there have been some restrictions, but basically, I think they have not had much financial difficulties.

It is often said that reincarnation is like this or that. Reincarnation exists. It has been talked about since ancient times, and recently, there are concepts like "group soul" in spiritual circles. Some religions do not believe in reincarnation, but I personally believe that the human soul does reincarnate. There are two patterns.

Pattern 1: The soul reincarnates directly.
Pattern 2: The soul merges with a group soul, then a part of it separates and reincarnates.

Broadly speaking, there are these two patterns: the soul directly enters another body and is reborn, and there is also the case where it merges with a "group soul" and then re-splits before entering a body. In my current life, it is the latter pattern, so the memories of past lives are not always 100% of my own soul's past lives.

Therefore, reincarnation is not just one way. Some spiritualists believe that the soul must merge with a group soul before reincarnating, while others say that there is no such thing as a group soul. Both patterns exist. This is based on my past memories and knowledge gained during out-of-body experiences, so it is difficult to prove. If you don't believe it, that's fine.

When I was in elementary school, I experienced out-of-body experiences and saw the source of my soul group. I can't write everything down, and some things are subtle. It might just be a dream. About 40% of my current soul is from a man (businessman) who lived in Japan for a while and reincarnated. He had completed his learning to a certain extent and moved to a higher plane, but realized he was still lacking, so he came back to Earth to learn again. He temporarily merged with the soul group and then split again. Another 40% is from a female soul. The remaining 20% is from various souls with diverse karma, which makes it difficult to identify. However, I have a general idea of the types. There are lives of women and lives of other men, all mixed together. There are also people who have left their names in history, but of course, there are also many who are unknown. Since my current soul is not 100% the same, it's hard to say that these are my past lives.

The soul group has its own will, and the purpose of my current reincarnation is to learn about the areas where I was lacking and to resolve the karma that accumulated from prioritizing missions in my past lives. Frankly, this time, the soul group has packed a lot of challenges into my life, focusing on my weaknesses. It has been a very difficult life. I think it's probably one of the most difficult lives in the entire history of the soul group. I'm sure the soul group will agree. I can hear a voice saying "Yes, yes" (laugh). Therefore, my current soul is much weaker than souls that had missions in the past. The focus is on resolving karma.

I feel very sorry about a past life, and I think I might have been a bishop in a church near Venice, or perhaps in Padua. At that time, I think I created the root of the problem that is still an issue today, which is "instilling fear in people in the name of God" in Christianity. I deeply regret that. It is difficult to change that in my current life as an ordinary person. I made people feel terror by saying that if they did not live according to God's will, they would be punished by God. At that time, people's morals were a problem, but I think my way of teaching was wrong. After I died, during the funeral ceremony, the bell rang without anyone ringing it, and a few years later and about ten years later, I think it signaled that I was watching over them, by making the bell sway three times in total. Well, this might just be a dream. I wanted to investigate the church records to verify this, but there are many churches, and I don't know how to search those records.

Well, I don't know if it's true, but it's a story I learned during out-of-body experiences or in dreams. One of the souls in my group soul lived in medieval Europe as a priest or scholar. An alien, who was not yet familiar with humans, contacted them for a human investigation and lived on a spaceship for the second half of their life. That alien was humanoid. In the next reincarnation, they were born on a spaceship, but this time, they didn't reincarnate directly; they first joined the group soul and then were divided again to reincarnate. This time, it was quite a mischievous life, and they often got into fights with other alien children from a young age, causing trouble. It's a relatively recent story. The next reincarnation, I think, was "I want to be born on Earth..." and then reincarnated on Earth (this time). It wasn't born directly, but rather, it joined the group soul first and then was divided, so as I mentioned above, it's not exactly me in terms of percentage. By the way, there was also a time when my soul entered the body of a creature on another planet to help its spiritual growth. It was a planet that was slower in spiritual development than Earth, and it was a planet with constant jealousy and conflict, so it was difficult. Well, in this life, I haven't had any connection with spaceships yet, but I feel like I might be able to return to the mission if possible. Recently, there seem to be more staff working on Earth, so I don't feel like there's a shortage of staff, but I wonder if that's actually the case?

Since the soul is continuous and the body is temporary, for example, when reincarnating for a mission on another planet, the current body is completely destroyed down to the molecules, and then the soul moves and enters the target body. At that time, it doesn't wait for the end of life; since the body disappears, the soul moves on its own and enters a baby. When returning, the soul returns to the spaceship after reaching the end of life, and then the soul enters the reconstituted body. The soul has memories, so the memories are continuous. By the way, the creatures on that planet were cute creatures shaped like eggs with small hands and feet. Like something out of a manga (laughs). Well, it might just be a dream. But, when I was young, I visited UFO-related organizations and met people with related memories, so it doesn't seem to be just my own memory.

There are souls that reincarnate around me, persistently thinking I am a target, but I have become accustomed to dealing with them recently. Whether they live nearby or not, I basically ignore them, or I move to a place where they are no longer relevant. Well, there are people who live by exploiting others. Because they are so persistent, I have started setting traps so that something bad happens to them when they come near me. It is a big mistake to think that I will always be a docile target. Well, that is also one of the lessons of this life, and there is a need to resolve karma.

If everything goes according to plan, the house of that person will be washed away by the tsunami that will eventually occur in the Tokai region. Originally, that person was destined to be swept away by the tsunami and die, but I am merciful (sarcastically), so I will send inspiration to help that person. I will manipulate things so that they go shopping shortly before the earthquake and get into a car, and I will take them away from their house to a safe, high place. That's kind, isn't it? (sarcastically) But they would probably be better off dead. They will lose their house, lose their property, and live in an evacuation center for the next few decades, so even though they are alive, it will be a difficult life. Then, they will finally give up on sticking around me. It is wonderful that saving their life can also sever the persistent connection. I hope it goes well.

People who approach me thinking I am a target are not overtly rejected by me, but I subtly change their lives in this way to distance myself from them. It seems that this is the way that works best for me. The person involved probably would never think that I am doing such things, so there is almost no chance that they will harbor resentment towards me. What I am doing is not something that my conscious mind is doing, but rather my group soul (soulmate) is working behind the scenes and quickly taking care of it, and my conscious mind only learns about it later. My group soul (soulmate) is much more skilled than I am. That's only natural. I am reincarnating by collecting weaknesses in order to resolve karma, exposing only the parts that make me seem like a target, but it is clear that my group soul (soulmate) is basically much more capable than me. Even if I seem like a target, it is for the purpose of receiving lessons, and people who truly think I am a target are basically being manipulated from behind. For those who go too far, I am severely retaliating, or my group soul is adjusting things so that they distance themselves from me without my knowledge. My group soul is truly a professional in that area. My current conscious mind seems like a tiny, ordinary person, but my group soul is too excellent. Well, actually, I am quite an ordinary person in this life. That is unavoidable for the purpose of resolving karma.

Also, my past wives get angry at the people around me. Especially, they glare at strange bugs (women) who approach me, causing them headaches and making them retreat (laughs). So, women who approach me and try to become friends with me must not only be liked by me, but also by my past wives. That is probably a high hurdle (laughs). Basically, being an extremely good person is the first condition, but whether their attitude is just superficial or not, my past wives will investigate by sticking to that woman, so they see everything. Well, as I mentioned above, I remained single in this life because there was a purpose, so it is a bit of an overreaction.

Yes, that's the kind of thing, so I think that, in reality, "graves" might not be necessary. I don't think people go to graves after they die very often. Most likely, they will go to the place where their kindred spirits are and live a lively and enjoyable life.

From the perspective of group souls, both separation and merging are possible, so from the viewpoint of the number of souls, whether the Earth's population increases or decreases is not something to be overly concerned about. There is a discussion about whether it is within the Earth's capacity. Even if a large number of people die due to tsunamis, earthquakes, or pole shifts, while there may be temporary feelings of suffocation or pain, from the perspective of the soul, it continues, so there is no need to worry about that.

It is said that reincarnation exists, and that one does not necessarily reincarnate into the same family line. In fact, it is rare to be reborn into the same family line. Therefore, accumulating a lot of money in this life may not have much to do with the next life. However, there are connections of group souls (kui-kon), and if there are excellent group souls (kui-kon), plans for the next life will be made, so things generally do not go too wrong. For example, it is possible to forcibly pull a terrible soul out of a baby's body and throw it into a poor family. Therefore, it is better not to do things that will cause resentment from others. If things get to that point, it must be a very serious matter.

The soul originally has no gender, but through repeated reincarnations, sexual characteristics develop, which could be called "habit." This remains in the core part even when the soul joins a group soul. When a soul separates from the group soul, the sex characteristics are largely determined by whether the original part was male or female. Sometimes it's 9 to 1, and sometimes it's 6 to 4. Gender is basically chosen according to the mission and purpose in the next life. Therefore, there are times when the gender chosen for the purpose matches the soul's previous gender, and times when it does not. Basically, the soul agrees to choose a gender, so it gradually becomes that gender after birth, but there are also cases where this is not the case. Recently, gender has been subdivided, not just into two categories. Originally, if a soul chooses a gender and is born, it is basic matter to fulfill that gender, but sometimes a soul chooses to be male because it is difficult to fulfill its mission as a woman, or chooses to be male because it is afraid of abuse as a woman. In some of these cases, it seems that complex genders are emerging due to reasons such as the soul's previous gender, the gender the soul originally wanted to be born as, and the actual physical gender not matching. In one case, a man wanted to be born as a woman, but based on a vision of the future in a parallel universe, he chose to be a man because he was afraid of suffering from sexual abuse or being forced by men. There are also cases where souls choose a gender to avoid problems in the current world. These complex cases are becoming more common recently, but if the world were truly peaceful, the number of complex genders would decrease as souls are born as the gender they want to be. In addition, there are cases where, due to national policies and social circumstances, a particular gender is scarce, and souls choose to be born as a different gender. Sometimes I hear stories about souls lining up and entering prepared bodies, but I don't really understand that. In my case, I am basically designed by myself and the group soul. There may be groups that decide things in order, as there are various souls in this world, so I don't particularly deny it.

Whether it's a friend or a husband, it seems that men tend to become possessive, and I don't like people who are like that, regardless of whether they are men or women. Even so, I wonder if women can somehow handle those things, or perhaps it's just that I'm compatible with them, but it seems that women are less possessive. Perhaps because of that, there are many (or almost all) women around me in the afterlife. Men are possessive and try to force or manipulate things, which is bothersome.

After finding a job, it was a period of spiritual hardship, and I lacked spiritual stability. I spent my days feeling mentally exhausted at work, but I managed to find some stability by changing jobs a few times.

Computers also have a surprisingly spiritual side, which is not as common in Japan, but in Silicon Valley, meditation is quite common. There are times when people enter a state of high concentration and focus, often referred to as "the zone," and enjoy working. Generally, computers and spirituality are often seen as distant concepts, and in Japan, the IT industry is largely considered non-spiritual. However, I think there may be some exceptions. This is also one of the lessons I've learned. In the past, I was overly focused on spirituality, so I decided to learn about computers to strengthen my logical thinking. It seems that in a past life, I would often try to cover up the lack of logical thinking with emotions, which was one of the issues I needed to correct. The frequent appearance of people around me who tend to do the same may have been because they appeared near me to help me objectively understand my own flaws.

And, just before returning from India, I did a little yoga for the first time in my life, and although there was a gap afterward, I resumed yoga after my world trip, and I have been doing it since then. Although I knew my life's purpose through an out-of-body experience when I was a child, knowing it and actually doing it were very different, so I struggled a lot. This time, it was a culmination of karma purification, and I had packed in quite a few challenges, with the purpose of resolving the negative things I had accumulated little by little in past lives all at once, so it was quite difficult.

[Added on 2019/7/28] Now, my challenge is to level up my consciousness, so I am very interested in yoga these days. In order to study, I obtained the RYT200 certification from a Yoga Alliance instructor in Rishikesh, India, although I haven't told anyone. For a while now, daily meditation has been my routine. After doing yoga, I started to hear the "nada" sound, which is a sign of purification, and then I experienced what is known as "Kundalini," and I am here now. I finally feel that what I had been sacrificing has been rewarded. I had been struggling with my mental state for decades, but recently I have been feeling a sense of liberation, and I have become more energetic and can spend peaceful days. This is what I was trying to resolve in this lifetime, which was the elimination of karma. I think I have achieved a passing grade. However, this feels like a starting point, and it also feels like something is about to begin, but I don't know exactly what will happen.

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I think I have generally cleared the passing grade for resolving karma by around the age of 40.
Based on failures in parallel worlds, and in order to achieve things that could not be accomplished in this life, the soul may have separated and created a "split spirit" to experience a different life and complete specific lessons.
"It seems" because my conscious mind is not involved in these matters. Decisions about adjusting parallel worlds or creating split spirits are made at the level of my higher self, or my unconscious, or my soul. Therefore, my conscious mind only occasionally becomes aware of these things and thinks, "Ah, so that's how it is."