As mentioned earlier, because the soul separated during childhood, what is happening now is the fusion with the higher self.

Therefore, it becomes clear that there are people who do not experience the fusion with the higher self, as spoken about in spiritual teachings. If a person has been physically and mentally healthy from birth until now, they have lived their life without separating their soul. In that case, since the soul was not originally separated, there would be no fusion.

When I recall and trace the fragments of memories of the souls belonging to my group soul, I don't seem to find any examples, like this time, of fusion with the higher self (or what could be called fusion with the Purusha). Before each person lives their life, a soul separates from the group soul, and then, that separated soul lives its life without separating or fusing, and ends its life.

Indeed, there is some separation during ascension after death, and certain parts are separated... but that is not always the case. In most cases, after death, the entire soul remains intact and drifts or ascends to heaven, returning to the group soul.

Therefore, the fusion with the higher self or the Purusha, or something like Samadhi, as mentioned in yoga and spiritual teachings, may occur only in special cases, and basically does not occur.

In fact, when I first experienced it, I thought everyone would be in that state, but it seems that, based on other people's experiences and various considerations, it is because the soul was originally separated (during childhood) that the fusion (in middle age) is happening now, and that it is necessary.

It seems quite natural that if there was no separation from the beginning, there would be no fusion.

However, in this case, because the soul separated during childhood, a relatively large part of the past that was inherited from the group soul has been continuing in a dormant state in the memories and aura, skipping several decades. There is a bit of a "Urashima Taro" aspect to it, but even so, there is a strong aura of the life that has been lived, so daily life and work can be carried out without any inconvenience.

I know this may sound strange, but it's not like I have amnesia. Although the memories of the past few decades feel like events that happened in a distant world, or like the events of someone else's life, I believe those pasts were real based on various physical evidence and circumstances. However, from the perspective of the aura and consciousness that have been stored separately from my body for decades, this world seems fresh and interesting, even though it should be familiar, creating a dualistic perception.

In terms of personality and memory, while the past personality and memories exist, the stored past personality is becoming dominant, and the current memories are becoming blurred and vague, making it feel like I am re-confirming the world. Sometimes I feel like Urashima Taro or Jekyll and Hyde, and it seems that the personality is returning to the state before the childhood trauma that caused a mental breakdown.

In the process of spiritual growth, when the separation of the soul and consciousness is resolved to a certain extent, the soul and consciousness (so-called aura) that were originally separated can return to oneself, creating the prerequisite conditions for fusion with the higher self. However, even if someone has grown to the same level of spiritual consciousness, if the soul and consciousness were separated due to some painful experience, the fusion with the higher self (or Purusha) will occur at that point, but if the soul was not separated from the beginning, the fusion with the higher self will not occur, because it was one from the beginning.