It's not exactly a past life in the way people often think, but there are lives, or perhaps memories of a group soul, where the origin of my karma seems to be a life of being exhausted from dealing with evil spirits.

In those lives, I was living a fairly witch-like existence, and with each life, my vibration gradually decreased, and with each decrease, I seemed to be sharing space with evil spirits around me, and I was becoming tired of dealing with them.

When I trace those memories, it seems like I was thinking, "Every time I'm reborn, there are more evil spirits in the city..." At the time, I understood it as an increase, but now, if I think about it, evil spirits have always existed, but my vibrational level and their overlap have changed, and my vibration has gradually decreased, so the number of times our timelines overlap has increased. Or perhaps it's both.

In any case, in those lives, I was exhausted from dealing with evil spirits, and when evil spirits approached, I would seal them, make them disappear, or drive them away, doing what you might call exorcism, but I was tired of that routine.

In reality, dealing with these kinds of evil spirits (using these methods) is endless. In that sense, the awareness of dealing with evil spirits is, in a way, something that continues forever.

On the other hand, I now choose a life of not being with evil spirits, and even though I sometimes get possessed by evil spirits, strange dark spirits, or demons, I am basically living a life where I don't interact with evil spirits.

Basically, I can separate myself from evil spirits by raising my own vibration. In the first place, we are living in different worlds.

Even so, evil spirits sometimes approach, but from the perspective of evil spirits, they don't approach people who have no openings. Therefore, it is important to maintain a high vibration and not let your guard down, but even then, aggressive evil spirits may possess you, so sometimes it is necessary to deal with them, but for evil spirits, it is more efficient to possess a weak target that is easy to drain energy, so if you maintain your awareness and stay strong, you will not be possessed easily.

And then, in order to resolve those lives of being exhausted from dealing with evil spirits, I consulted with a certain spirit world mentor, and I was proposed a strict method of being reborn by wearing a robe from the spirit world to seal my spiritual abilities, and I am currently living in that life.

Now, I think that among the people in the world who are called exorcists, or those who, even if they don't say it themselves, are fighting against what the world calls "evil spirits," and those who believe they are on the "light" side in the battle of "light and darkness," there is something that overlaps with the image of me from a past life (or something like that) who was exhausted from fighting evil spirits.

Among those who are called exorcists or healers, there are people who claim to be lightworkers and who are fighting against dark forces as their life's purpose. When I look at such people, even just a little, there is something that seems "tired" (like the image of me from a past life (or something like that)).

The battle between light and darkness has been going on for quite a long time, and in reality, there are people who are called lightworkers who are replaced, and some of them may fall to the dark side, or some who were thought to be in the dark may move to the light side.

These axes of "light and darkness" are always present in that hierarchy, and as it is said in spiritual terms, it is a relationship where there is a front and back of a coin, where there is light, there must be darkness. Therefore, no matter how much light fights against darkness, darkness will never disappear.

As I wrote before, when I wore the "cloak of the spirit world" and brought myself down to the bottom, that was a process of fusion between light and darkness. In the process of integrating the light within myself and the darkness that persistently tormented me from the outside, I think I found a hint of the next level, beyond the level where I had been fighting darkness as the "light" side. This may be something that is difficult for others to understand.

As a result, beyond the axis of conflict between light and darkness, that world is also called the "world of light" in words, but the light in a dimension with a conflicting axis is completely different from the light in a dimension where light and darkness are integrated. In that integrated dimension, there is neither light nor darkness, but even so, if I have to express this in words, "light" seems to be the most appropriate term. It is actually darkness, but if I say that, it will be misunderstood, so "light" seems to be the most appropriate term.

In this world, there are actually ordinary exorcists, but there are also people who are in a world beyond the axis of conflict between light and darkness.

Now, as a result of undergoing a kind of asceticism and Spartan training to face head-on things that I had been avoiding throughout my life, the current situation is not necessarily what I had envisioned as complete overcoming, but at least, the hardships that I remember are no longer present, and I think it was a method that had a certain effect. However, in reality, I would not recommend it to others, but I think it is one effective method.

And, reflecting on it, and looking at the people around me who are like exorcists, I think that as long as you believe you are light, you will continue to fight against darkness, and that struggle will literally repeat itself forever. Light can never truly defeat darkness, and darkness can never truly defeat light, because they are two sides of the same coin. As long as you are in that hierarchy, the pattern of "light workers" fighting against darkness will continue to repeat itself.

A particularly clear example is the Japanese pantheon of gods. There are gods of wrath, gods of maternal love, and so on, while there are also beings like evil spirits and demons. In Japan, this is not often spoken of as a direct opposition, but there are various gods, and they are fighting each other, treating each other as enemies. In this way, there are gods who are on opposing sides, and sometimes one side is treated like a demon. This is all a world of "personal gods," gods with clear consciousness.

Above that, there is a world of "only light," which is not just light, but integrates darkness as well. It can be described as a world of "only darkness," although that is a misnomer. In other words, it is a world that integrates creation, destruction, and maintenance. It can be called "light only" or "darkness only," or "a world that is full." There is a world that has overcome the duality of good and evil, and it can also be expressed as a vibrational level. There are integrated realms, vibrational realms, frequency realms, and realms of a certain dimension.

I suspect that what I was suffering from in my past memories was that I originally lived in that integrated world (as a psychological state), but eventually my spiritual vibrations fell, and I fell into the world of good and evil, resulting in a world where the duality of good and evil is visible. I think I was even doing things that were like exorcism, where light and darkness are in opposition.

This is also like the Buddhist concept of heaven and hell. Hell is not somewhere far away, but overlaps with the Earth's spacetime, and at the same time, heaven also overlaps. By aligning your vibrations, you can encounter demons and monsters in hell, and on the other hand, there is heaven. It is a difference in vibrations, but as long as you are still feeling the difference between heaven and hell, you are living in a world that is divided into two, where good and evil exist. However, if you align your vibrations with the integrated realm of creation, destruction, and maintenance, the realm of "only light," the realm of "fullness," then there are no longer any demons or monsters there, or if they are there, they will not affect you.

However, since we are living beings, it is not possible to exist solely within a single, one-sided vibrational realm. Instead, we can access a wide variety of vibrational levels. Nevertheless, by maintaining a high vibrational state, the mind becomes stable, and it is possible to live a peaceful daily life.

While contact with lower vibrational realms may occur, this can be dealt with through experiences akin to exorcism, and fundamentally, avoiding contact with demonic or hellish realms allows for a peaceful daily life.

One of the original purposes of my reincarnation was to be able to live such peaceful days, and to a certain extent, that has been achieved.

People who live an exorcist-like life may accept that their lives are filled with conflict, but if asked, I would like them to understand that another life is possible. In reality, people with such exorcist-like qualities often have superior spiritual abilities and a certain degree of self-respect, so they probably wouldn't listen to what I have to say. I think that is only natural.

Perhaps, as I remember, there may be times when someone who has grown tired of an exorcist-like life and wants to escape this chain of light and darkness may consider, as one option, sealing their spiritual abilities using a spiritual cloak or something similar, even before reincarnation, or during their lifetime if such abilities exist. This could be a way to break free from the hierarchy of the light and darkness conflict.

Because of this background, this life can be said to be largely dedicated to resolving my own karma, rather than being focused on missions. I was not used to a life focused on missions, but it is sometimes a good thing. And that is why I can move freely, without conditions. That is what is expected of me.