This morning, I focused particularly on the area between my eyebrows, and I concentrated intensely on the tip of my nose, making slight adjustments and gradually loosening the area. As I did this, the aura of my entire body began to change. Eventually, there was an aura only around my body, while the aura inside my body felt empty. I rarely experience this kind of aura sensation. I remembered a time when I was a child and had a high fever, and I felt a similar, strange sensation. At that time, the aura was like a thick membrane surrounding my entire body, slightly distanced from it, like a cocoon.
As I observed the aura in various parts of my body, I noticed that the aura around my abdomen felt rough, like sharkskin, and that the aura around my head didn't extend as far upwards. It was a strange sensation. The aura itself felt like the sensation I had when I was a child with a high fever and having a feverish dream, but I didn't feel particularly distressed. In the morning, I simply felt that the aura was rough and that there was nothing I could do to calm it.
If I were to describe the appearance of the aura, it felt like bamboo, with a solid exterior and an empty interior. It wasn't as hard as bamboo, but it was a fairly solid and viscous aura that spread outwards, like a well-formed bamboo. It was more like a very hard jelly or a pattern where softened cartilage was spread around my body, enveloping me in a somewhat hard aura that allowed for some movement.
There's an expression in Zen, "empty bamboo," which generally refers to a state of emptiness and enlightenment. However, in my case, it was simply a sensation of the inside of the aura being empty while the outside was solid. Perhaps it's the same thing, but I'm not sure.
Besides the strange sensation of having a bamboo-like aura, nothing else was particularly unusual this morning. However, a few hours later, I suddenly felt unwell, and it was visible on my face. I went home and rested.
Recently, I haven't experienced such a significant decline in my condition. However, unexpectedly, I felt like I was being spiritually attacked or subjected to persistent negative energy, which caused my condition to deteriorate rapidly. My head felt congested, and it became stiff. I managed to avert the crisis by meditating and slightly opening the center of my head, but I wasn't back to normal. The area around my head was still stiff, and the flow of energy in my head was generally poor. I had no choice but to meditate for over four hours in the evening, which I hadn't done in a long time, to gradually resolve the issue. I first removed the basic stiffness in my head. However, areas that had been steadily softening recently suddenly became stiff again. This may be due to some external factor. When I looked in the mirror, my face had a strained expression, and it felt like I had suddenly become ill. Of course, it wasn't a cold, but I simply felt unwell. After meditating for four hours with breaks, I looked like I was recovering from an illness, but I still felt unwell. When I checked every part of my body, I noticed that I used to have a weak right shoulder, which made it easier for negative entities or resentful energies to enter. However, since strengthening my right side recently, my left shoulder feels weaker, and it still feels stiff. In addition, the area around my crown, the Sahasrara chakra, and the skull at the top of my head were generally stiff. I gradually released these blockages one by one. The area between my eyebrows was also very stiff, and I gradually loosened it. Perhaps this isn't a spiritual attack, but simply a result of focusing intensely on the area between my eyebrows this morning, which may have slightly disrupted the balance. It's possible that I focused too intensely on that area and neglected other areas, especially the center of my head, causing tension in those areas. I've started to think that might be the case, but I'm not certain.
Thus, it seems that due to some reason, the Sahasrara chakra at the top of the head, or the center of the head, became blocked (temporarily), cutting off the connection with higher realms, and as a result, higher energy stopped entering the center of the body (as much), resulting in a feeling as if the center of the body became empty.
This is normal for people who originally have a weak connection with higher realms, so it probably feels normal, but in my case, I felt quite connected to higher realms recently, so I think that when the connection suddenly disappeared, it caused a noticeable change, such as a stiffening and twitching of the face.
I recovered to some extent after meditating until night, but one of the factors may be that what I ate last night was not very good. This has happened before, and although it is an ordinary restaurant, I had a similar, intense spiritual disturbance when I ate at the same store before, so I thought I had become strong enough to not be affected, but I was easily affected, and I thought, "When it happens, it happens." The food at that group is cheap, but it doesn't seem to be very good. I will pay more attention to my diet from now on. Probably, that was the cause. In fact, I haven't experienced such severe effects at other places, but only at that specific restaurant group, which makes me think there might be something to it.
However, I feel that I will be completely recovered by tomorrow, so I will try not to worry too much.
... Afterwards, I suddenly realized the reason, and it seems that when I was recently taught how to set up a protective barrier for my home by a certain organization, I thought, "I wonder if I should try it, even if I don't have much opportunity to use it," so I may have temporarily summoned negative entities or thoughts. That's how it is, sometimes. This morning, I immediately tried the protective barrier, and it seems to have a certain effect, so I am observing. If this trial was the reason, this symptom should heal quickly.
... The next morning, after meditating for about an hour, I felt a "click" in the center of my head, and energy started flowing (through the nadis and Sushumna), and I am almost fully recovered. I feel like I am recovering from an illness. When I look in the mirror, I am pretty much back to normal. It's pretty much as expected.
One might say that I re-experienced the ups and downs of the past six months or a few months in a single day. About half a year ago, I felt a similar blockage and became unwell, but at that time, I was unwell for a relatively long period, about three weeks (according to my records, from March 27th to April 18th, 2023). This time, it is recovering in about a day (about 20 hours), so it seems that the recovery is becoming faster. Of course, it is best not to be affected in the first place, but it seems that my ability to deal with it is also becoming faster. Even though I was affected, it is a good trend. I am growing.