I have a timeline that I once planned but discarded. Although I call it "discarded," I've at least traced it once, so it's something of a reality. However, I've re-done it, so it's "discarded" in that sense, but it's actually something that has happened. Most people would say, "That's just your imagination," "It's just a dream," or "It's just a fantasy," but for me, most of it is reality. In fact, I have many memories of other timelines that are more vivid than the memories of my current timeline's past. While it's common to interpret these as dreams, they are often too realistic to be just dreams. I also have some memories of other timelines that I share with other people. I'll pick out some of those related to romance and marriage. First, in the pattern where I grew up in Tokyo, I didn't get along well with my college boyfriend, and we broke up not only without any romantic feelings but also without much sexual attraction. I moved to a different place and started over, and I married the girl I liked in high school (the one who recommended Adachi Tsumi, but it's a different person). When I asked her parents for permission to marry, they advised me to "think about it some more." In that timeline, it was a mystery, but now I realize that her parents truly knew about love, and they wouldn't recommend marrying someone if their daughter didn't understand love. When I eventually divorced, her parents were expressionless and said, "We knew it." It's a memory from another timeline, but I remember it vividly. As a derivative of that, there's a timeline where I dated a girl in high school but fell in love with a college classmate, and I had to choose between them. I ended up dating a classmate who was a bit quick-tempered, and it was a relationship that was more based on sexual attraction than true love, with very little affection. That timeline was also discarded. In addition, I've considered various other patterns. When you get involved with someone young, you tend to become close and eventually marry, which leads to raising children and consuming money, making it difficult to achieve the goals I wanted to achieve in this life. So, I think there has been intervention from a higher level, where they suddenly cause confusion or present two people at once, making it impossible for me to choose, and ultimately preventing me from forming a romantic relationship. That was fine when I was young, but there are also various timeline branches in my 30s. For example, there's a possibility of marrying a girl I met in India in my 20s, and I have memories of what that future might be like. However, that's just one option, and it seems to be based on sexual attraction, which is not satisfying to a higher level, so that timeline was also discarded. There's also a timeline where I marry a girl from a different department at the company I first worked for. That was a relationship based on affection, so it was relatively good, but again, it would prevent me from achieving my life's purpose, so I discarded it. Also, there's a timeline where I become close to a girl who does yoga and whom I met in my 40s. That's a relationship based on affection, and it seems like it would be a fun life. However, in that case, it might be better for her not to get married and focus more on yoga, so I let that timeline pass. Now that I think about it, I realize that there were many good people, but I didn't have the capacity for that at the time, and I've only recently understood the concept of true love. These people are actually unrelated to my current timeline, and they are just ordinary people to me, but some of them have similar memories and are aware of it. They may not recognize it as a timeline, but rather as the past or future, but at least they are aware of it, so I think my perception is quite accurate. However, it's a story that is generally considered a dream or fantasy, but it's a story that is shared with some people. If we are both fully aware, there is a possibility of treating each other as something like a family member from a past life, even if it's another timeline. This is something that is not easily understood, but in everyday life, we are just friends or strangers, but if there is a need, we will help each other and support each other's goals. It's not just about past life connections, but also about achieving a certain level of spirituality and expanding our consciousness to other timelines, and if both parties are aware of that, it is possible. Even if I am not married in my current timeline, I can use the memories and connections from that time to support each other in this timeline. Conversely, it's also common for something bad to have happened in another timeline, so we avoid it from the beginning. I have done that and avoided a lot of trouble. After overcoming various difficulties, I have finally achieved a certain level of understanding of true love, and I feel that my hard work has paid off. In the future, there are many possibilities, and it seems like there's about a 30% chance of reconnecting with the college student I met. There's also a high possibility of remaining single. My mission is to have a minimum level of trust, so marriage is not essential, but there are a few options for fulfilling that mission, and I will adjust them as the situation unfolds. In any case, there are some clues, but it's up to the future whether they will come to fruition. Of course, there's also a possibility of becoming close to a different girl I met through yoga. I don't want to rely too much on spirituality, so I think it's better to do things steadily in my immediate surroundings. I wonder what will happen. It's not fun to know too much about the future, and I think things will change anyway, but there will be interventions from a higher level if necessary, so I don't think I need to worry too much about it. In any case, I can't resist the interventions from a higher level, so there's not much I can do about it.

And, although this is a big topic, I probably have the last life on Earth for this era, so I want to recover as many unresolved plot points as possible before the end. My soul will separate into two halves just before returning to the group soul and merging, with one half merging as is, but the other half will continue for only one time in a different era and end. Therefore, this era is the end for me. So, in this life, I feel like I'm experiencing various things in fragments and at different times. This kind of alternating experience between the bottom and the experience of love is largely due to a higher-level setting and intervention to recover various plot points. I'm saying this myself, but this life is very difficult, and if I were an ordinary person, I would have probably committed suicide and ended my life when I was young. This time, I have been re-experiencing the past ten years through flashbacks for several weeks, and just like I thought at the time, the feelings of wanting to commit suicide at that time are also being reproduced. Of course, I won't be consumed by those feelings now, but I have re-experienced the same feelings. At that time, those feelings continued for a long time, but since I was alive, I guess I had some resilience. I'm not sure, but my soul, which is a young soul that has only reincarnated twice since separating from the group soul, has a soul that lived before me, which is different from me, that separated before my soul separated from the group soul, and the purpose of that soul seems to be "to understand the suffering on this earth." That soul that lived just before me reincarnated many times, and repeated the same era over and over again, probably about 30 times, as a different life. And all of them were men, so-called businessmen, who graduated from a decent university, had enough money, and all of them had elegant wives. In the first place, when my soul, which is one generation before me, came to Earth with a purpose, it didn't really understand what life on Earth was like, but it had a motivation to understand the worries of ordinary people on Earth. So, it was born rich without understanding, but after getting used to life on Earth, it tried to lower the difficulty level by trying a life with a little less money. From the outside, it might have seemed like the level of life was decreasing with each reincarnation, but in reality, it was able to lower the level of life by improving the skills of living on Earth. It wasn't always a lower level of life, but sometimes it lived in a large house, and by being an ordinary salaried worker, it sometimes lived together with its wife in a small apartment or condominium of about 50 square meters, or sometimes it had a better life, and its wife would go to a fancy lunch as a matter of course, but because it was well-bred, it didn't think it was wasteful, but it was actually spending quite a lot of money from the outside. That seems like a good life, but in terms of the original purpose of "understanding the suffering on this earth" when that soul was created, it only achieved half of its purpose. The group soul's initial intention was to understand the suffering of people at the bottom. My soul, which is one generation before me, completed its life cycle and ascended to the group soul, but it achieved half of its purpose, but the essential part was not achieved. And after that soul returned to the group soul, my soul was created and separated, so I have some memories of the life of the soul that was one generation before me. My soul has been thrown into a bottom-level environment in order to achieve the original purpose that the soul that was one generation before me could not achieve, so I can say that I fell into it myself.

Therefore, it is only natural that the difficulty is high. The previous incarnation lived a "good life" without delving too deeply, and while it may seem like they were fulfilled and happy, with a wife who was also happy, this time, I have sacrificed my own happiness in order to understand "the suffering of this world," and have essentially broken down my own mental state and brought myself to a state of despair.

And whether or not I succeed, my core group soul will return to its original world, leaving Earth. However, if I can recover the final clues and solve the mystery, that would be a great success. If I fail the mission and am absorbed into Earth's reincarnation cycle, repeating reincarnation, then I will likely be abandoned on Earth for a while. While I certainly value life on Earth, I prioritize my mission above all else, so I am willing to temporarily sacrifice worldly happiness.

In science fiction, stories are often told of astronauts being stranded on unexplored planets and assimilating to survive. For example, in Star Trek, there are stories of people who were left on planets and had to hide their identities as locals for decades or even centuries, across multiple generations.

In my case, my core group soul is still on Earth, but it will eventually leave. Once it leaves, I will lose the protection of a higher power and will only be able to live a mundane life on Earth, so I am a little anxious about not being left behind. At that time, the previous incarnation's wife and close friends may be able to go to that world if they wish.

That is a peaceful and prosperous astral world, half-spirit and half-matter, but if the person wishes, and if there is a connection with me, they can go to that world. However, if they do not want that, they will remain on Earth. I am worried because if my connection to Earth becomes too strong, I may not be able to return to my original world and may have to extend my life on Earth and start over.

Basically, I intend to return to my original world, so I am careful not to form deep emotional connections on Earth. I hope that everyone will come with me to my world, but that will not be the case for everyone. Nevertheless, I have repeatedly heard from spiritual counselors and those who can foresee the future that "your life on Earth is coming to an end," so I feel that it is indeed the case.

In reality, I have mostly achieved my goals, and my lifespan is good, but I may receive new missions because my body is still functional, and an astral template is being created, which will significantly change my life after middle age. I will tell you more about that another time.

While life on Earth is important, I prioritize my mission above all else, so I am willing to temporarily sacrifice worldly happiness.