When you start to become interested in meditation and spirituality, you tend to look for something special.
You might think that you must have a profound experience, or that some strange sensation should occur. You may worry that if you don't know the right way, you won't even be able to enter.
Thinking like that can make you feel tired before you even begin.
However, the initial step doesn't necessarily need to be so grand.
First, return to your breath.
That is enough.
Your breath is always with you. You don't need any special tools. You can do it without a quiet room. Even if you can't take much time, just a few seconds in the midst of your daily life will suffice.
The important thing is not to try to perfect your breathing right away.
You shouldn't feel like you have to breathe deeply or exhale for a long time. You don't need to eliminate all distracting thoughts. If you try to do it "correctly," even your breath becomes work.
I think that at first, simply noticing is enough.
"Right now, I am breathing in."
"Right now, I am breathing out."
"My chest is moving slightly."
"My stomach is loosening a little."
Just observe those things.
For example, before you open your smartphone immediately after waking up, try to feel your breath once. Even on days when you're rushing, just one time is enough. Breathe in, and breathe out. That alone can bring you back from the outside world to your inner self.
The same applies during work or errands.
When we are being chased by something, we tend to forget that we are breathing. In our minds, the next appointment, messages that need replying to, unfinished tasks swirl around. Even though our bodies are here, our consciousness is running slightly ahead into the future.
In such moments, just observe your breath once.
This won't immediately solve any problems. The appointments remain. The work remains. Replies are still needed.
However, it shifts things a little.
The consciousness that was rushing towards the future returns to the present body. The anxiety that had been expanding only in the mind touches the concrete sensation of breathing and regains some form.
Returning to your breath is not an escape from reality.
Rather, it's returning to reality.
When we are anxious, we often think about things that haven't happened yet. When we are angry, we repeatedly recall words that have already been said. When we are sad, our minds wander between the past and the future.
There is no need to eliminate all of those as bad things.
However, let me touch on something relevant to the present.
That's because there is breathing.
Breathing is very subtle. It doesn't produce dramatic light or anything that needs to be shown to someone else. But precisely because it is subtle, it can be used in everyday life.
When waiting for a train. When boiling water. After getting into bed. Before writing back to someone. When feeling slightly unpleasant.
In such small moments, just take one breath and return to yourself.
I don't think you should underestimate this single breath.
Major changes do not always begin with major actions. The repeated, small act of returning to oneself within the daily routine gradually shifts the direction of your heart.
Of course, there will be days when it doesn't go well. There are times when you try to focus on breathing, but immediately return to your thoughts. There are also times when, even while trying to calm down, things become more agitated. But that is not a failure. If you realize it, just return to yourself again.
Inhale. Exhale. Just look at those two actions once more.
The entrance to meditation may not be a distant, special door. It might already be subtly open within the breathing that you are doing right now.
Start with one breath. That is enough.