I don't know if this is something that actually happened, or if it's a memory of my inner child, a parallel memory, a group soul memory, or even someone else's memory. I've had similar memories since I was a child, and based on my understanding at the time, I seem to have tried living as a woman several times before living in the current timeline. Each time, for some reason, no matter how many times I restarted the timeline, I was repeatedly and repeatedly raped.

I had completely forgotten about it for a while, but recently, I suddenly remembered this.

This world is surprisingly dangerous for women. If you're careless, you can be forcibly violated by such terrible men, and it seems to have been a significant trauma for a long time. That trauma seems to be sleeping deep within my memory, and now that I am a man, the memory of being raped as a woman has remained with me since a long time ago.

I think that because I had such painful memories, I thought, "I'm going to stop being a woman," and I went back in time to be born as a man.

The reason I say this is probably because, at the stage of choosing parents and deciding to reincarnate, I intended to be born as a woman, and my mother said, "Oh. I thought I was going to have a girl." So, my mother seems to have initially intended to raise a girl.

Indeed, (regarding that part), it was originally planned that way, but being born as a woman turned out to be a very difficult life. No matter how many times I restarted the timeline, I was repeatedly raped and had my virginity taken. Moreover, the man who raped me wasn't just one person. Sometimes, several men would surround me, laughing and acting like demons. According to my memory, I cried and begged them to stop, but they laughed and continued to do it until I mentally broke down and couldn't resist. Initially, those men were very excited and enjoyed raping me, saying things like, "Wow, it fits perfectly." It was very disgusting, but as I continued to be violated for a long time, I gradually mentally broke down and became exhausted. After a break, another man came in and said, "Hey, it's looser than before. I'm done." If it was loose, they didn't want it, and they would laugh and leave, like throwing away a toy they had played with. (According to my memory), I was left there, slowly got up, and went home with heavy steps, took a bath, and washed away the traces of the disgusting man, but I had been violated, so I was worried about getting pregnant. Although I was relieved that I didn't get pregnant, the trauma remained for a long time.

I didn't understand why there were memories that seemed to be of someone else, but were related to physical and historical events.

Similarly, in a certain timeline's memory (when I was a woman), I went on a trip to Morocco, and I was attacked by a man hiding on the side of the road. He seemed to be extremely frustrated, and he was also very large, and his genitals were also very large. At that time (according to my memory), I was a small woman, so even if I was forced inside, it wouldn't fit, and I was repeatedly raped, with him hitting me hard in the back several times until I died. At first, I was very scared and almost crying, but because it was the first time I had been penetrated so deeply for so long, I gradually started to feel good, and even while being raped, I felt something pleasurable. Moreover, I was accidentally seen by a Japanese man while being raped, and he was extremely surprised and froze. Not only was I seen, but I was also seen while resisting and still feeling something pleasurable, so it was a very humiliating situation, consisting of the humiliation of being raped and the humiliation of being seen while feeling something pleasurable even while being raped. As a result, the trauma and the feeling of pleasure became mixed, and even if I felt pleasure afterward, the trauma would resurface, and I felt that I would not be satisfied unless I was teased in an S way by my partner, which seems to have become a strange sexual preference.

As I think that rape leaves a deep trauma for women, I wondered why I, who am currently a man, have so many memories of being repeatedly raped, and sometimes being raped when I was a virgin, which caused trauma. I was curious why there were so many diverse memories of rape.

I think that these memories, which have remained within me for a long time, have been a cause of the inactivity of the lower body, specifically the Muladhara (base chakra) and Swadhisthana (sacral chakra).

Now that I think about it, this can be interpreted in various ways, and it may not necessarily be my own memory, but rather a memory that I received from someone else, or it could be interpreted as a trauma that I saw while observing the lives of others before being born. However, the characters that appear in these stories involve me, my mother, and even how my father became my father, so I don't think it's the lives of other people.

It is possible that these memories belong to someone else, but by organizing these memories and giving a sense of reassurance to them, such as "It's okay now. Don't worry," I feel that the Muladhara and Swadhisthana chakras become activated, and not only there, but also the tension in various parts of the body is released to some extent, leading to a deeper sense of relaxation.

This is not just simply healing, but also the following image came to mind:

Light fills the earth, and such immoral men will no longer be able to exist on earth, especially in Japan. Men who commit rape will have their souls leave the earth (especially Japan) afterward, and they will no longer be able to continue living. A specific number, 600,000, came to mind. Surprisingly, there seem to be many such immoral people in Japan. 600,000 is a considerable number, and it's surprisingly large, but it seems to be equivalent to 60 million people worldwide. If that many people disappear from the earth, women will be able to live peacefully.

An image of the Japanese archipelago came to mind, and it was filled with light. It was as if, like oil and water separating, souls that commit rape would no longer be able to exist on the earth and would float up like oil stains (which I think means they will die).

I don't know if this is just an image or if it will actually happen. Also, 600,000 is a considerable number, so I don't know what will happen to those people. However, at least, I felt that the aura in my body, mainly in the lower abdomen, was being adjusted, and the tension in my entire body, mainly in the lower abdomen, was released, leading to a deeper sense of relaxation. I feel that not only the aura in the lower abdomen, but also the auras in the shoulders and surrounding areas have expanded slightly.