I have a memory, though I don't know if it's true, that I was born with a spiritual cloak that seals my abilities. According to this memory, there's a reason why I was in that state in the first place. I think I've written about this before, but here's what it is:

Before I was born, (a part of my group soul) was in the following state:

* They were gradually becoming tired from repeatedly reincarnating (or something like reincarnation).
* They felt very tired when they approached strange spiritual entities in the city.
* Their concentration was decreasing.
* They were starting to forget how to return to the heavens (how to ascend).

So, a spiritual mentor, like a grandfather, introduced them to a special cloak from the spirit world. He said, "This is something that's rarely used these days, but it was commonly used in the past. This cloak seals spiritual abilities, so you'll live as an 'ordinary human.' Because you can't use spiritual abilities, you'll experience hardship, but that hardship will allow you to grow spiritually."

When I tried it on, my vision was blocked (by the spiritual aspects), and I couldn't see anything. It was like being in complete darkness, and it was very scary. I even blurted out, "It's scary!" I didn't want to use a cloak like that at first. I still wanted to make my life easier by using spiritual abilities, but I accepted the mentor's grandfather's suggestion because I wanted to escape from that suffering, rather than just wanting to be comfortable.

However, when I was born, even the ability to sense energy was blocked by the cloak, making it difficult to feel. It was like being on the other side of a door.

Regarding vision, in a normal state, spiritual and physical vision are mixed. But when wearing this cloak, spiritual vision disappears, and only physical vision remains. So, while wearing the cloak, I can behave like an ordinary person. And that's the training.

With spiritual vision, you can avoid strange entities when walking down the street, or if the road is narrow and you can't avoid them, you can detour. Even if you have to go through something dangerous, you can assess the danger and stop breathing to close your senses, carefully proceed, and pass through to the other side. For example, there are things like "spider webs" or strange (large) insects in the city. The world is actually like a demon realm in a game. Most people don't feel anything.

But when wearing the cloak and seeing nothing, you rush in without paying attention, inhale strange things, and suddenly experience physical discomfort, your face turns red and congested, and you have difficulty breathing. Sometimes it happens in an instant, so there are always dangerous things floating around. And by rushing in without paying attention to any invisible and strange entities, you get sick and are trained, which is like a Spartan training. You can be forced into situations that you would never willingly enter. This is a kind of asceticism. Ordinary people live in the physical world and are driven by physical desires, so they are in a relatively safe environment. However, when your senses are open, there are many dangers. By wearing the cloak, everything disappears, and you are in a state of being affected by various unknown entities, which is the training. This is exactly the situation that the mentor's grandfather described.

This cloak also has a sealing function. When you put on the cloak, the seal is activated at the same time. I remember that there are two main ways to break the seal, and three ways including an exception:

1. Mantra + (hand) seal
2. It automatically breaks when you die (I'll exclude this for now)
3. (In a) spirit state, remove the cloak (this is an exception)

The easiest way is to use a mantra and a seal, and it was a relatively simple mantra and seal, but I completely forgot it. There's supposed to be a paper taped to my head with the mantra written on it, but it might be unreadable because time has passed. Or, the seal breaks automatically when you die. And finally, there's an exceptional way to forcibly remove the cloak if you have a certain level of ability.

If you want to remove it cleanly, using a mantra and a seal is the best way, and the seal will break cleanly. Forcibly removing it in a spirit state will break it, so you need to carefully check the entire area to make sure it doesn't tear, and then remove it completely. Even if you remove it, you can reuse the cloak as a defensive cloak, but if you tear it, it will be unusable.

In my case, I was trying to remember the mantra and the seal, but I haven't been able to recall them, so I'm thinking of forcibly removing it, even if it means breaking something.

To be honest, I didn't expect this situation when I was born, and I only had two goals in my life, so I didn't anticipate any additional goals or missions. Initially, I thought it would be fine to remain sealed until I die, but it's difficult to fulfill those additional missions while sealed, so I want to release the seal for now.

One way to do that is something that has inspired me several times before, and I want to try it.

First, in my current state (due to being immature), I can't consciously astral project yet, so I want to give instructions to my conscious mind before meditating or falling asleep, and then, if I'm lucky, I'll remember those instructions during sleep or meditation and be able to execute the seal release. Of course, if I grow enough, I'll be able to astral project with my conscious mind, but I'm not there yet, so I'm aiming to make it easier for the higher self to remember the instructions by giving them while meditating or falling asleep.

Alternatively, if the key is to understand the mantra and the seal, there's also the option of finding someone with that ability (a counselor). Perhaps that would be faster. All I have to do is recreate the mantra and seal that the teacher taught me, and someone with clairvoyance might be able to see it.

So far, I've been trying to break the seal through meditation alone, using both the orthodox method and brute force, but it hasn't worked, and it seems that this seal is quite strong, and I don't think it can be broken with just meditation. So I'm looking for other methods.

I've been with this kind of seal for a long time, and I feel like I've absorbed its properties, and I have a feeling that I might be able to use a similar sealing technique myself. That's something for later.

Training is good, but I'm starting to think that it might be time to go back to normal, but I've forgotten the mantra and the seal, so I'm thinking about how to break the seal.

If I can break the seal, I can largely resolve the problem of "being a medium and picking up negative energy," and this is often caused by encountering strange entities in the city and receiving unpleasant auras. If the seal is broken and I can see things, and I can even use sealing techniques myself, I can purify the city.

I hope to achieve that (return to normal) as soon as possible.