Since I was a child, I somehow thought this, but whether it's true or not, I remember being born with a spiritual cloak that seals my abilities. According to my memory, there is a reason why I became like that, which is a preliminary stage. I think I may have written about this a little before, but it's something like this:

Before I was born, (not necessarily reincarnation, but in the process of something like reincarnation), a part of my original group soul was in the following state:

・Gradually becoming tired through repeated cycles of something like reincarnation.
・Feeling very tired when approaching strange spiritual entities in the city.
・Concentration was decreasing.
・Starting to forget how to return to the heavens (how to ascend).

Then, a spiritual mentor, like a grandfather, introduced me to a special cloak from the spirit world, and said, "Recently, very few people use this, but it was often used in the past. This cloak seals spiritual abilities, so you will live as an 'ordinary human.' Because you cannot use spiritual abilities, you will experience hardship, but through that, you can grow spiritually."

When I tried it on, my vision was blocked (by spiritual things), and I couldn't see anything, it was like being in complete darkness, and it was very scary. I even blurted out, "I'm scared!" I actually didn't want to use such a cloak at first. After all, I still wanted to make my life easier (by using spiritual abilities), but I accepted the mentor's grandfather's suggestion not because I wanted to be comfortable, but because I wanted to escape from that suffering.

However, once I was born, even the ability to sense energy was blocked by the cloak, making it feel like I was on the other side of a door.

Regarding vision, normally, spiritual vision and physical vision are mixed, but when using this cloak, the spiritual vision disappears, and only the physical vision remains. Therefore, while wearing the cloak, you can behave like an ordinary person. And that is the training.

If you have spiritual vision, you can avoid strange entities when walking on the road, and if the road is narrow and unavoidable, you can detour. Even if you have to go through it, you can judge whether it is dangerous or not, and while holding your breath and closing your senses, you can carefully proceed and pass through to the other side. For example, there are things like "spider webs" or strange (large) insects in the city. The world of a game's demon realm actually exists in reality. Most people probably don't feel anything.

However, if you wear a cloak and can't see anything, you will carelessly rush in, inhale strange things, and suddenly become ill, your face will become distorted and congested, and you will have difficulty breathing. Sometimes it happens in an instant, so there are often dangerous things floating around. And by carelessly rushing into anything, even invisible and strange things, you will become ill and be trained, which is like a Spartan training. It forces you to experience situations that you would never do if you could see them. In a sense, this is a form of asceticism. Ordinary people live in the physical world of desires and have limited senses, so their world is relatively safe. However, if your senses are open, there are many dangers. By wearing the cloak, everything becomes invisible, and you are exposed to the harmful effects of various unknown entities, and that becomes training. This is exactly the situation that my grandfather, the mentor, explained.

This cloak also has a seal built into it. When you put on the cloak, the seal is automatically activated. I remember that there are mainly two ways to break the seal, and three ways including an exception.

1. Mantra + (hand) seal
2. It automatically breaks when you die (this is excluded for now)
3. (Your own or someone else's) astral projection (or spirit) state, and remove the cloak (this is an exception)

The most convenient method is using a mantra and a seal, and it should have been a relatively simple mantra and seal, but I completely forgot it. There should be a paper attached to my head with the mantra written on it, but it may be unreadable now because time has passed. Or, the seal will automatically break when you die. And finally, there is an exceptional method, but people with a certain level of ability can forcibly remove the cloak.

If you want to remove it cleanly, using a mantra and a seal is the best way, and the seal will be released cleanly automatically. Forcibly removing it in a spirit state will tear it, so you need to carefully check the entire cloak to make sure it doesn't become patched up, but even then, it can be removed. If you remove it cleanly, the cloak can be reused, and it can be used as a defense membrane cloak as is, but if it is torn, it will no longer be usable.

Recently, I have been trying to remember the mantra and the seal, but I haven't been able to, so I'm thinking, "I'm going to let it tear, and I want to forcibly remove it."

To be honest, I didn't think I would be in this situation when I was born. I only had two goals in my life, so I didn't expect any additional purposes or missions. Initially, I thought I could remain in a sealed state until I die, but it's difficult to fulfill this additional mission while sealed, so I want to release the seal for now.

One way to do this is something that has inspired me several times before, and I would like to try it.

First, in my current state (due to being immature), I cannot consciously astral project. So, I plan to give instructions to my conscious mind before meditating or falling asleep, and then, if I'm lucky, I'll remember those instructions during sleep or meditation and try to execute the seal release. Of course, if I grow enough, I will be able to astral project with my conscious mind, but I'm not there yet. So, I'm aiming to make it easier for my higher self to remember the instructions by giving them while meditating or falling asleep.

Alternatively, if it ultimately comes down to understanding the mantra and seal, I could look for someone with that ability (a counselor). Perhaps that would be faster. I just need to recreate the mantra and seal that the teacher taught me, and someone with clairvoyance might be able to see it.

Until now, I've been trying to break the seal mainly through meditation, using a straightforward approach and brute force, but it hasn't worked. It seems that this seal is quite strong, and I don't think it can be broken with just meditation, so I'm looking for other methods.

I've been with this kind of seal for a long time, and I feel like I've absorbed its properties. I have a feeling that I might be able to use a similar sealing technique myself. That's something for later.

Training is good, but I'm starting to feel like it might be time to go back to normal. However, I've forgotten the mantra and seal, so I'm thinking about how to break the seal.

If I can break the seal, I can largely resolve the problem of "being a medium and picking up negative energy." This is often caused by encountering strange entities in the city and receiving unpleasant auras. If the seal is released, I will be able to see things more clearly, and if I can use sealing techniques, I will be able to purify the city.

I want to become (return to) that state as soon as possible.