I have always been bad at these two things, but again, I experienced something that made me feel this way. As I get older, these kinds of experiences have become less frequent, but recently, it happened again.

Due to a certain event, I suddenly felt a sense of inferiority, and for some time, I was wondering whether I directly felt inferior about that specific incident.

Therefore, initially, I thought that this matter was not something of this kind.

However, there was a sense of unease, and I felt that my initial understanding was somehow incorrect.

Recently, I suddenly realized something. It seems that the feeling of inferiority I had was actually caused by the man who was behind me at that time glaring at me with feelings of jealousy.

If that is the case, I also feel like I was worrying about such irrelevant things for a while.

After that, I thought about various things and came to understand that feelings of inferiority themselves are not necessarily problematic emotions; rather, they can be a healthy sense of resistance.

Well, that is correct in its own way.

However, somehow, fundamentally, it seems that even such a thing did not happen in relation to that matter itself.

It was a problem that existed previously.

At that time, what I felt was not actually a feeling of inferiority, but rather the sense of being glared at due to jealousy from others.

That was all there was to it.

Understanding can sometimes be wrong, and a mistaken understanding can have lasting consequences.

In the end, if you understand that what happened at that time was like that, then you will no longer hold any incorrect understandings.

As I have written in detail before, at one time, the topic of "cosmic language" came up, and suddenly, a feeling similar to "inferiority" arose within me. However, it turned out that this was not inferiority or anything like that, but simply that the man behind me was jealous of me.

Once you understand it, it's a trivial story that goes something like, "Oh, I see... It's just this again..."

From a long time ago, I have been troubled by "men who feel jealous."

What to say about these men? They seem to think they can do whatever they want with the women they've targeted, and as soon as those women look at me or show any attitude towards me, they throw intense jealousy in my direction.

"It is often said that a man's jealousy is pathetic," but it is not just pathetic; they persistently send feelings of intense hatred, which is truly troublesome. Every day, as soon as they see me, they glare at me. There are many such utterly ridiculous men, and I have become less involved in romantic relationships with age, so these incidents have been rare recently, but this time, it seems to be something like that again.

This was probably a few years ago, maybe 2 or 3 years.

At that time, something like that happened, and I thought, "That's strange." But then, when I recalled it and reviewed the situation, I realized, "Wait a minute. That man standing behind me seems to be glaring at me and sending feelings of jealousy. This must be him." And so, I became certain.

Once you understand it, it's nothing special; it was just a ridiculous man's jealousy.

• Initial misunderstanding: "Feeling inferior to those who came before in the universe." → That wasn't the case.
• The truth is: "The man behind me was jealous of me."

I don't know what to say about that.

It's really troublesome, but things like this happen quite often, so I guess you could say I'm used to it. "Again," I think. Sigh.

For a man like me, who is already at this age, to be envied... what kind of person would that be? I even doubt if such a person truly exists. What is this? There are various kinds of men in the world... It's incomprehensible.

This might actually mean that I am a victim. It's really troublesome, and I want it to stop, but there are always strange men around, you know.