My past self seems a little like someone else.
When I reread old diaries and articles, I feel a somewhat strange feeling.
It is certainly something that I wrote myself.
But, it's a little different from who I am now.
The things you are worried about are different.
The way of choosing words is different.
What I valued might have been a little different.
The past self, while being oneself, also seems to resemble someone else in some way.
Change is difficult to perceive within a vortex.
People may change, but they often don't realize it while it is happening.
Since every day is a continuous sequence, the difference between yesterday and today appears to be small.
However, when rereading records for half a year or a year, there are some differences.
A period when I was repeatedly getting caught up in the same thing.
From a certain point in time, there are parts where the language suddenly changes.
The things that I used to be afraid of, I can now look at from a slightly distanced perspective.
Such changes are recorded in the documents.
Don't overdo it at reflection meetings.
When reviewing, I don't think it's necessary to have too many self-reflection sessions.
Why did I write this?
I wish I had noticed it sooner.
I did not understand myself at that time.
When you start to blame things like that, it becomes a little heavier to read through the records.
Rather, I view my past self like a collection of documents.
At that time, it appeared to be what it was at that time.
At that point, it was the best I could do.
Even just thinking about it, the way you read something can change.
Records leave traces of change.
The Wayanata records were not simply a list of events.
There is a change in understanding.
There is a change in how locations are received.
There is a change in the sense of distance from mysterious things.
If you leave it without erasing it, you will be able to see your own path later.
When you reread your records, you can see how you have changed.
That change is also a part of the worldview, I think.